Gauging

Sometimes...

I don't need perfections 

I don't need need random 

I don't need poised conversation

Sometimes...

I don't need to have to think and rethink 

Guard and unguard  

Sometimes....

 I just need you 

Your lust, your power, your strength 

Your joy, your pain, your trust 

You, all of you, 

The deep dark ugly 

The bright and beautiful shining 

The need and thoroughness of your control 

Your insatiable need for me to submit 

The helpless need in me to bend

to your dominating voice 

          ................. Let alone your touch

Right now, my life is suffocated in darkness 

And shredded in despair and 

In need of guiding

Sometimes

 I need you to be my light 

Just thinking painfully out loud 

~ In Search of Truth ~