Ice Girl's public thoughts.

Soul Searching -

Today was one of those days. Growing up, I didn't have much family and didn't get much attention or love.

So, how do I fill the void in my mind with achievements?

I often go out of my way to achieve things that I can point to and be like, "See, I have value. I did this impossibly awesome thing, and after it feels hollow."

The need has been filled for a while, so what do I do? I find the next thing to get obsessive about, achieve that mountain 🏔️, and move on to the next.

It would be nice if, at some point, I could do things without some sort of internalized need to combat insecurity.

Working on how. 🥺

Complete transparency and vulnerability feel weird. The need to be perfect means so much to me yet all we can do is chase the never attainable.

My mantra for as long as I can remember-

Good, better, best, never let it rest - till your good is better, and your better is best.