Some of you already know I got contact traced at my job the state of Maryland has deemed me someone exposed to high risk covid-19 and I am supposed to stay in my residence unless I need to leave for medical food or an emergency.
This alone would be an annoying time but I live with at risk people so i basically spend 22-24 hours lately in this room. I come out to eat use the restroom and then go back in. I do it to protect people I care about but it is getting to me.
My nature is high energy I like to do things only so many things to do in the same 4 walls 5 days straight. I think the worst part is the feeling of lost agency that I shouldn't just go do things if I want to.
Personal I think the state of Maryland messed up I haven't had so much as a sneeze yet here I stay anyway. I hate the fact at times I can be so damn obedient. I want to violate this especially because I hate it but there is the social contract I have with my loved ones especially that I will not needlessly put them at risk.
I took a covid-19 test today yet the results won't be in until Monday. Oh well gonna be a shitty weekend that is for sure.
