I have been open to everyone on here and it's been cathartic working through my demons. I don't think I have been able to adequately express that my body mind and emotions are hyper feminine. I always had a female body.
Growing up because of my condition people constantly were harassing me to model its an open secret that many models have my condition because being unable to process testosterone we have beautiful features in terms of standard beauty.
I updated my photos so you can see what I looked like for the majority of my life. Albeit I was pensive, that picture came about because I had a friend at surprise me with that outfit and they wanted to see me wear it to dinner.
Until someone decided it was ok to roofie me which made me feel ugly and give up on myself. The abuser was the first male to ever penetrate me it was quite painful. As I have voiced before I have had issues with getting comfortable in my body to begin with and that compounded it.
I felt unable to function properly for a long time, the fact I'm female I sometimes feel obligated me to a life of punishment for merely existing.
I'm trying to combat the bullshit in my head and gain a confidence and appreciate I never had prior. This blog has been so good to me as many of you have tried to help and support me. That's why I even as I'm crying as I write this I feel that its important for me to post this for all of you to see.
Thanks for the continued love and support,
Icegirl
