Ice Girl's public thoughts.

I never worked so hard.

I thought because I am smart and always do well medical school wouldn't be as hard as it is turning out to be.

I have class 8 hours a day plus homework and that's not even the studying.

Add in the fact that I'm in a place that had been near shut down with snow while also having to unpack ( literally just moved the weekend of school) and they have a ton of requirements they are pushing me on like doing an FBI check and such since if I am going to be prescribing medications they need to know I am a trusted person.

The endless work the literally collapsing on my phone just trying to have a conversation with a loved one before bed and this is only the first week.

I know this is only a couple of years of my life and in the grand scheme of things my whole life built to this moment.

They said on the first day hold onto your why because you will be tested.

My why is I need a medical license so I can help educate other providers about trans and Intersex care and treat people in my community who have been abused better than I was.

I have been given this opportunity to make a difference now I have to get it done.

The one saving grace is my program has to list it's attrition (drop outs) and in the last 3 years it was only 10 people out of 180. So this program is doable by the majority of people who enter but In all honesty I have never tried anything this hard.