After a while of searching, of both myself and for others, I have come to the conclusion that the one I have been looking for was already there in front of me and I missed the Daddy through the Doms, so to speak.
I won't mention names - I'm not allowed to, for one, and two, I haven't met my goal to prove myself to him yet - And before you all start ranting and raving about how "You shouldn't have to prove yourself to your Dom" - I DO have to prove myself.
I have wrung this Dom out to dry two times before this, unsure of myself and my place in the world. I need to prove to him that I am serious about being true to myself, true to him, and true to this lifestyle.
SOOOOO. On to losing the weight that I've been steadily gaining over the years. How do I do it? He has suggested going on a thousand-calorie diet, but I just find myself not sticking to it. So... I need to exercise more, perhaps? Or one of those "Fad" diets, such as Atkins or Keto?
I don't think I eat "all the time." I don't eat HEALTHILY is the problem. I like spaghettios over real spaghetti, for example. I like chips over vegetables. That kind of thing.
What would everyone recommend for losing weight? Keep yourself busy? I try, but I find myself 'hungry' during busy times.... hmmm maybe I"m just bored and need to learn what is bored and what is hungry.