This month has been very stressful for me, several big things have hit me hard but then there was something a little smaller that hit me. I had to go to the ER for some stitches, I had told Master what happened and everything in a message but he was at work at the time so he wasn't able to talk to me until I was actually in the treatment room getting taken care of. As soon as he called I immediately picked up my phone and said, "Yes Master?" as I have been taught. He stayed with me on the phone and I was able to relax and stay calm and I got through it.
I am so grateful for Master.
I struggled for a while right before that and after that with doing my responsibilities and I finally made myself talk to Master about it. I did not want to admit defeat. I could not tell him I was struggling to do things as smoothly as he dose. I felt a little like I might be stupid since I wasn't as skilled as him, but I kept reminding myself he has had almost 20 years of experience where I have only just started. Plus I had an injury that makes it difficult ( not impossible ) to do the tasks I'd promised Master I would. He said something that is still echoing in my head...
" I know you're struggling, but I am so proud of you. The woman I met several months ago would never have asked for help. But you have grown and you can do it. I know you are facing a lot of changes and challenges and I'm not going to lie to you, but you will have more challenges and changes and they will get harder. But know this, you are not alone anymore." I know I will get through this. I know I can. Master is there for me and he believes in me! He knows I can do it, he sees my potential and he will not let me give up, this makes my devotion to him just keep growing more and more.
Slave E, I belong to Master!
