Gag4life

ITs been interesting lately, its been a struggle becoming a student, taking on this "career" I have chosen. Often Im faced with the many hard truths that only come with experience and well growth. Education is interesting, I forget how many times Ive said this but I find Education to be like a double edge sword, It kinda shed light on knowledge is power mixed in with with great power come a great responsibility. There is this one song by an artist who I like Loove, It hit me when I first heard it, the lyrics resonated as if I had already heard them. sometimes Lyrics are my greatest motivation in difficult times. 

"When I was just a young boy, maybe like seventeen
I would talk to my father, told him about my dreams
And often he would tell me "Don't rush to be a man"
I heard the words that he spoke, but could not understand
'Cause to me life was easy, it was just fun and games
Until I saw that people were filled with so much pain
It's harder to share sometimes, easier to pretend
The way we treat each other, I just don't comprehend
Last night I heard a story, too crazy to be true
I wouldn't dare repeat it, what are we gonna do?
And as we figure it out, the time just slips away
Don't worry about tomorrow, just be glad you've got today

Hey
Oh, what feeling fi get what you want
Then want disappear from it all
How strange is the thought
Boss, how you fears run so deep
House of my dream, nightmares in my sleep
And I wake and I can't get my thoughts to align
I lost in my head and I searching for time
And I want figure how fi escape from my mind
'Cause it too strange up deh, God know I trying
And it start take a toll, me start feel a weight
Heavy is the head, now I know what it mean
And I feeling ashamed, feeling the doubt
Can't understand what this feeling about
Will I reach an amount of the things that I need
That would lead me to be at myself and be free
Yow, it all too bizarre, I can't get a grip
It moving to fast and my fingers a slip
Pon a daily this reach me, this draining habit
'Cause the more me attain is the stranger it get
I'm in pain, I'm in danger, I'm in love, I feel hate
All at the same time, I can't get a break

and its Strange." -Protoje

You ever lounge listinging to music and notice lyrics? like really listen to them? This 0ne verse is powerful

"Get rich dem marching out And if you marching out And you inna a doubt You march without me I rather march alone Than fi march back home " - Proteje 

Over these past months Ive taken a step in and step out of the Kink World. Each time I step back in I find im a little more knowledgeable in my own way. I had the opportunity to escape the city for a few days and spend time in the bush in solitude. I ran the thought of that special number 4 and how it relates to many things in our life. Mental, Physical, Spiritual and Emotions, In the life I live these 4 things come up in every aspect. when one is not right the others end up working over time. I think back to a time I spend with a Pro Domme who does couple therapy, She shed alot of new light on my initial thoughts towards Kink, and how it can be used in a way alot like medicine or at least a form of it. This may be a poor example of explaining my thoughts but when I think of smoking, It does have its negative properties but underneath all that is is a kind of medicine. How we use these medicines is up to us, when it comes to Kink I can see that with different individuals, because the medicine effects us in different ways. 

I hope you enjoyed this Rammble of my thought!  

There are Times is our lives where We embark on great change. There is alot to be said about the courage that it takes, the Willingness it takes to embrace that change and make it our own. We often fear Change. Asking yourself Questions can some times reveal answers you seek. In these times many of us must embrace great changes, But to those facing change do not lose site of yourself, Make your road to suit your Needs.

Pedal! Pedal! back at it. some time Life hits you unexpectedly, Like flat tires when you ride your bike. finally got my wings again so Now I can soar with ease! with this new year brought change, though the change appeared to be a challenge im climbing it like a hitt pedaling on, You got this mates Pedal on! This post is a little different than usually har har

Its said that patience is a virtue, I believe that statement to be true why you may ask? Because Taking the time to be patient allows you to focus on other things in life. I don't know if this is the same for some people but when I am eagerly looking forward to something it tends to be the main thing on my mind. The more I think about it the more Impatient I get, it kinda makes this strange paradox in a way. its interesting how we can create such a thing with just our minds. Its not easy to look past the eagerness. Though If the time is taken, you will be able to prepare yourself mentally, Physically and spiritually. It also opens your Eyes to other options. I'd be a hypocrite if I said I didn't try to Indulge on my eagerness. To get over these Indulges I guess Patience is a cure. Well That was my Evening Ramble    

Do you ever find with things happening at the perfect time to be strangely satisfying. I wonder if thats because its some aspect of change with How unexpected it is sometimes. When we count down on things like New years the count down is Exciting. Each day I start my day Bed locked but the simple thought of "okay, 1,2,3 Up". Its almost like Im preparing myself for the day Subconsciously. Ive grown to Enjoy my mornings early as they be. It give me time to reflect. Ive learned to Control alot of My fears with early morning Moments, at the very least it helps with my fears for the day. Something about that 1,2,3 mindset is interesting. Strange morning thoughts am I right?  

Meditation, Its something that I believe is a necessity to balance ones self. Taking the time to do it each day brings me good reminders. A Day with nothing to do, Those days are nice, they give you the time to reflect or  even catch up on things lagging behind. Its amazing how fast the day goes by, just reminds you how special each moment is. Stay Strong Mates!

On this day Many years ago, The flame that enveloped the world extinguish. Each one who fell, Each one who saw others fade around them. Each one who never got to say good bye. Those who Enlisted for the Sight of freedom. The Mentality of no fear of the End. Today we honor those who were sacrificed and have sacrificed. To only a few years later The return to Europe would make its return. The War to End all wars. I wont let the memory of them Go. Their strength inspires me to continue each passing day, and for that I will Carry what I can of them with me each day. Lest We forget. For they shall not Grow old. 

(indigenous Canadian soldiers ww1)   

The autumn palette Fades and the Dry Cool winds begin to settle. Such Small things To notice wouldn't you say? But notice them I do. As I watch the world around me my mind wander the Small things disappear. Ive always found the City lifestyle to be claustrophobic. Days just go on, and on. My life Spirals into a loop. You start to question your Choices in life and the carrier you have buried yourself in. You continue on each day with no sense of purpose. With the plague continuing to bear its fangs I start to wonder if leaving everything I have behind, the world that I call home to wander the Land in search of. What would I be searching for, Myself? teachings? I know that one day in my life that journey will come, but that time is not now. I have to much unfinished things to do. So I continue, but I will continue to keep my connection with that which I call truth, to Stand proud and let nothing stop me from reaching my Goals set before me. Often times we cloud ourselves with negative thoughts, But when the Sky clears The light come. 

(Soldat und Tod (Soldier and Death) Painting)