Good morning, my favorite reader! Yes! You are my favorite reader! I like everyone else, but you? You rock!
I have been part of this site for a week. A whole week! I have met some very great people, I have made a few new friends, I have had bouts of randomness that seemingly made people laugh, and now my belly button is on the interwebs for the world to see. All in all? It’s been a good week!
I came to this site somewhat skeptical. I had seen so many places that were supposed to be good for meeting people and learning about this lifestyle that have just failed miserably and have been overrun by scammers and bots and all that stupid stuff. So I’m not going to lie. I expected more of the same here. I have never been so happy to be wrong in my entire life.
This is a thriving community full of amazing people. Everyone has been so friendly and supportive and positive. It’s truly an amazing place to be. And for you, dear reader, thank you for helping me feel welcome!
Part of my hopes and goals for joint this community was to explore. Not only the BDSM community, but also myself. And there was a lot that I wanted to learn. And I think I’m doing good with that so far. I have learned a lot, and I’m proud of that. However, the search history on my phone looks very sketchy, and if I die soon, I’ll need you to clear my browsing history for me, dear reader.
What I’m enjoying the most though, is the self discovery. When I first discovered BDSM and all of its glory, the first thing that came to mind was all the crazy and hot stuff that it involves sexually. I was young and always horny. Now, I’m not as young. But still always... I digress. Now, I’m really starting to see how it’s more than that. It’s a personal journey that many of us are on to discover ourselves.
For example, I was asked yesterday, “Why do you think you’re a sub?” and I hadn’t really thought about that. I have always felt like a sub. Even before I knew that was a thing. In my personal life, having someone set the plan and tell me what to do and how to do it is the dream. Professionally, I’m a leader. I make the decisions, I tell people what to do. I’m good at my job. But it is so exhausting. So the concept of having someone who has my best interest in mind giving me that mental break, that peace, it’s just such an appealing thing, you know?
There is more to it of course. But this was one of the first things that came to mind. A peaceful place, a happy place, as many people have said, a safe place. These are things that everyone should have access to. And it’s just not something I have ever been able to build or make for myself. I spend so much time helping others and focusing on them that I forgo my own needs, and it takes a toll. So a break is a welcome thing.
It’s funny. As I’m typing all of this, I can think of things I left out of my original answer that may have been able to explain it better. But overall I think I did good with it, despite not having thought about it before. And for some reason, I’m answering the question again! Bah!
Today is going to be a good day. I can feel it in my bones. That may be arthritis. Shit. I can feel something in my bones. I hope you have a wonderful and happy Tuesday, dear reader! Don’t do anything that I wouldn’t do! And if you do? Do it better than anyone ever has! Own that shit!
Aggressive optimism!! Boom!!