Just me

The heart and memory....
As she sits alone the hearts memory takes over as it always does. She replays their breif moments together. Thinks of how complete she felt the minute she saw him the inner calm that came with his just coming into sight. When he touched her his light touch lighting her skin on fire. The moment when everything crashed together and mind soul and body became one and she was his. The way his touch feels, his lips, his kiss, his hand on the small of her back, his hands pulling her infront of him and her clumsy self falling into his protective grip. The way she fit into his body everyway. His marks on her neck start to fade but she can still feel him leaving them there. The growl and whispers in her ear that make her body flutter and her heart skip a beat. Her hand in his, his protective hold on her and his scent..... Things that are forever burned in her heart and the light in the darkness.
The darkness....
Leaving is the hardest thing anyone ever has to do and its the moments alone where the heart trys to replay its story but the mind makes its own. She tries to think and live in the breif moments with him but her mind makes her heart miss him more. Her smile fades and the tears roll freely because no one will see them no one will know how she aches. How the darkness brings the demons that even her heart cant keep away. She will put on her smile, her mask. She will survive because she is a brilliant actress and no one knows thats all it is an act. Then a message or a call come and she breaks, the one person who knows just who she is and that she needs him. Without a word he can sense her hurt her need. He protects her from the waves that threaten to pull her under. She knows in that moment she needs him, he is her air, food, water, the part that keeps her alive and not just going thru the motions.....
I need him to keep me calm, grounded, centered and alive.