Hi
It’s been a few weeks - since I have been penning these thoughts and observations about me and my inner persona.
Yet one still ponders - is it still the same?
To me the answer is NO ...one always seeks to grow within a friendship / relationship.
As a Man (not as a Dom ) I don’t think there will ever be a time where I’ll stop growing and evolving. Where I will reach the limit of my growth and can say ‘well, I’m definitely into all of these things and there’s nothing else???
Though that’s sometimes frustrating, especially when someone asks as one did on from the cage recently - ‘well, Sir what do you identify as?’ And I have to stumble on my words to say I’m a mix of things, it’s also a thing of beauty. Because there will always be something brand new to discover.
For example, there’s a huge part of me that identifies with the 19th century gentleman and this unspoken undercurrent of Dominance and submission.
And within my Euro-Latino heritage - even more that undercurrent of inner masculinity that seems to be lost these days.
And I identify with what my folks instilled because a big part that I’m drawn to is regulation. Polite wording like ‘Pardon me’ instead of ‘huh?’, standing up straight – etiquette like that – it speaks to me.
But then aside from this there are the other aspects of my personality that I’ve discovered along the way, the Daddy and the Master.
The Daddy aspect has always been with me, I think, since my early twenties. And as I got older and more at ease with myself, it has been more prominent and refined. I’m sure that she can tap into that INNER ENERGY so much so she can hear it in my voice.
Recently, I’ve felt a different side bubble to the surface that bears similar traits to a Master - But i have always been the ' Nurturing Type" of Dominant. One that Encourages and Uplifts - then to Take Down verbally to cause issues of self-esteem.
It’s weird to explain because the mind shifts at any given moment and borrows traits from established roles. So it’s a mix.
And as such, I think I will always be finding out new things about my mind. Maybe I’ll change. Maybe meeting / speaking with that Ideal submissive will begin to change my viewpoint. The How’s and the Why’s can be pondered and this thought is lengthy enough.
Bottom line is that I’m always growing and learning and finding new ways to live and play and explore and that’s beautiful.
But I am Still that Sensual Dom who has VERY strong urges, not just to control that submissive in ways but also to take care of her mind, body and soul,
How about you, stranger? Are you that sub?
If so – offer a brief comment and a an introduction.
