My Random Thoughts

Let’s face it: This lifestyle doesn’t resonate with everyone. For some, it sounds dangerous, criminal, and maybe even abnormal. To me, it comes naturally. Even to the point where I struggle when I do not have the dynamic in my life.

I ENJOY getting hurt and being used by my partner and at the same time, I am his world and he would do anything to protect me.

• Why do I enjoy a forceful hand at the back of my neck?
• Why do I LOVE a belt around my neck?
• Why do I enjoy it when he spanks me?
• Why do I like a whispered command in my ear while out in public?
• Why am I crazy about the suspense of knowing and at the same time not knowing what is going to happen when we get home if I "act out"?
• Why do I want my partner to take me when he wants me?
• Why do I feel wanted and desired when my partner takes me in the middle of the night, face pinned down by his hands?
• Why do I love it when he says "good girl"?
• Why do I love when he asks me "Who do you belong to?, "Who's whore are you?"
• Why do I love saying "I am yours", "Thank you, sir", "Yes, sir"?
• I have no idea what it is that makes me feel so good about this dynamic. But at this point, I'm not worried about it.

I CRAVE it, I WANT it, I NEED it.

I am a submissive, rope bunny, masochist, and slave - this is who I am.

I need a dominant, rigger, sadist, and master - this is who I want.

I have not idea what draws me to this lifestyle, and at this point, I'm not worried about it anymore.

This is simply WHO I AM and this is simply WHAT I WANT.