Poems and more from the Heart, Soul, Mind and Spirit

For quite some time, Queen has been sitting silent in the darkness, closed off from everyone.  Her guardian angel, Archangels, Spirit guides, animal totems and the love of a lifetime, have been sending messages, searching for the shining light of her soul.   There has been no response in return, dead silence, she shut out everyone and disappeared.  She couldn't hide forever, she couldn't hide from Heaven.

Heaven found her in the one place no one knew, was hidden from all.  My dear child, heaven whispered.  Please come back, you have to return the key to it's rightful owner.  Why should I? as tears streaming down her face.  The pain is too much to bear! I'm tired of the hurt! I'm not going to have the box opened ever again.

I need you to listen, Heaven said.  You may not realize it, holding on to the past is  not good, let go and  release the key to the rightful owner.  There are so many blessings awaiting you, your spiritual team has been looking all over for you.  I have hidden you from them, I need you to find yourself once again. Open your heart once again let the love flow through.  The chance will present itself once again, let go of the key, get yourself out of the darkness, shine your light brighter than ever before.  Happiness to the fullest will once again be yours.  Regain the trust and faith you have lost.   Open yourself to listen to the messages, stop ignoring us.  Now get some rest, you're exhausted. Remember you are loved by all.

I've decided to  collar  myself this morning. It made me smile choosing what I wanted, knowing  my worth and not seeking  worth/validation through a Dom.  Doms (a.majority) are full of ego and I don't want that energy around me at all.  The day will.come when a dom who is worthy enough to replace the collar I'm currently wearing. Until then, I'm going to live my life, do what makes me happy, be with who.appreciates not only my presence but me as a person. 

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Time and time again I forgive/forgave others for whatever reason..   Most importantly,, I need to forgive myself for allowing  the lies, half-truths to be believable. Not anymore, I refuse to  repeat the cycle I just ended.  I'm reclaiming my crown, this time I won't allow anyone including myself to make me feel unworthy, unwanted and unloved. 

I rather go back.to being single & vanilla with a side of kink than to take a  chance  of being destroyed on all aspects.  I didn't build myself up from the ashes for nothing. 

Thank you to all of our veterans.  ((HUGS))

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You desire words of ecstasy to fill you

Needing my words than any physical touch

My mouth on your cock

My tongue slowly goes up and down on your shaft, circling the tip

Inserting two fingers into your pussy ass, becoming harder in my mouth, moaning form pleasure and pain

You beg me to stretch out your ass even more, adding a third finger you gasp, moaning louder

The tip of my cock teasing your ass. Spreading your cheeks giving me more access to your awaiting hole.

Give me every inch, you manged to utter.  The desire of you needing me to fuck you hard and fast makes me extremely wet

Not yet, I'm going to take my time exploring every inch of your body, making you mine once again

Pinching, pulling your nipples, the clamps sends chills through out your body.  Please queen, you whispered, my pussy ass is open and awaiting your cock.

Your pleas  go unheard. I grind on your cock for added pleasure.

Lifting your legs onto my shoulders,slowly entering your awaiting hole, my handsome slut, you belong to me.  Fucking you while stroking your cock, precum dripping from the tip.  Licking it off with my tongue, kissing you, tasting your own cum has never been so exhilarating.

The energy intensifies within our bodies.   Licking, sucking each nipple. Making love to you is an experience we both desire. Juices flowing down my thighs, I give you a taste.

Thrusting harder, I want to hear you moan, beg, plead for me to fuck you harder and faster.

You shout, use me!!!! stretch my ass!!!!!

Wrapping your legs around me, holding me in place. Going deeper, deeper than I've ever been.

Deeper, harder, faster. I need more of you, all of you. Passionate and intense kisses on your neck, lips, nipples.

Arms and legs wrapped around me . I hold onto your shoulders, pulling you onto my cock, I want to hear your pleas for mercy, i want to hear you scream as I go balls deep into your hole.

Sweat of our bodies creates a beautiful intoxicating scent.  THEN.......

I turn you over, restrain you, commence to fuck you hard and fast without mercy, making you take every single inch.  My handsome slut, on the verge of orgasm.  I'm not ready for you to release just yet, Your soul needs to be truly fulfilled. Sweat pouring off our bodies, pulling, pinching your nipples. Biting your neck, scratching your back leaving marks of possession. You continue to beg for mercy, sending chills throughout my body.  Hearing your pleas for mercy, ass opening wider, desiring more. Fucking you mercilessly, you begin to release. Orgasm so strong, you can barely breathe, fucking you harder and faster. I want you empty, fulfilling my desire to lick every drop.

Removing the restraints, you wrap your arms around my waist, kissing my neck. You whisper, time to return the favor.

When the darkness sends  youoa new beast to be embraced

I order you to restrain yourself

The thought of  you being helpless is intoxicating

Something within me begins to emerge

I whisper, you belong to me now, my handsome slut

I flog your ass until i feel satisfied, ass red, revealing the numerous marks left from the pain you so desired

Sight of the marks,  sounds of you begging for mercy, makes me wetter than i have ever been

The beast within has a new friend

Be quiet! You quickly obey

My cock entering your inviting pussy ass that has been calling my name

Hearing your moans of pleasure and pain

Closing my eyes to allow the beast to fully emerge, to be embraced

A level of ecstasy achieve, taking over

Begging for more, you want more, you need more

I give you more than what you expected, flooding intense orgasms

What a blissful place to be

Who are we supposed trust now a days? Those who make  Promises, abandon? What about those ego-filled doms who don't want to change to suit your needs?  Heads are so big because of their ego, im surprised their necks don't hurt/snap from the weight. 

Hell, my cats are more trustworthy than some I have interacted with. 

Getting hurt trusting the wrong people will change you for the worst.  Trust issues resurfacing after dealing and healing from the previous issues caused by other ego filled/hurtful assholes. 

Hell, I don't trust myself anymore.  

The two most powerful words that anyone can and should speak (in a positive manner) are I AM.

I AM WORTHY

I AM MORE THAN ENOUGH

I AM A FIGHTER FOR INJUSTICES

I AM OUTSPOKEN

I AM WHO THE HELL I AM MEANT TO BE

I AM STRONG, FULL OF STRENGTH

I AM FULL OF GRACE

I AM PROUD OF MYSELF, MY ACCOMPLISHMENTS

I AM WEARING MY CROWN WITH PRIDE

I AM FAITHFUL

I AM LOYAL

I AM HUMAN

I AM NOT DESPERATE TO SERVE THE EGOTISTICAL

I AM NOT A TOY TO BE PLAYED WITH THEN TOSSED ASIDE WHEN BROKEN

I AM NOT YOUR FUCKING EXPERIMENT, THIS IS NOT HIGH SCHOOL

I AM THE FIRE THAT BURNS BRIGHTLY

I AM BOTH THE WARRIOR AND LOVER

I AM BOTH LILITH AND MARY MAGDALANE

I AM STANDING TALL

I AM ME, SO FUCKING DEAL WITH IT

After countless months of delays, I'm finally done (well sort of).  Now to start the second one, I do hope the second one gets done alot quicker *fingers crossed*  P.S I can use an extra set of hands right hands right now lol