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Poetry that i have written in the past and present. I'll also be adding short stories that I have written (stepping out of my comfort zone), my thoughts, desires, inspirations and the journey of healing on all aspects of my life. Enjoy and thank you for reading ((HUGS))
3 years ago. June 23, 2021 at 8:43 PM

 

 

I HATE MYSELF FOR  BELIEVING THE LIES

I HATE MYSELF FOR NOT STAYING AWAY

I HATE MYSELF GETTING MY HOPES UP

I HATE MYSELF FOR WASTING PRECIOUS TIME

I HATE MYSELF FOR NOT KNOWING BETTER

I HATE MYSELF FOR SHOWING MY SOUL

I HATE MYSELF FOR WALKING THROUGH THE DOOR

I HATE MYSELF FOR LETTING OUT THE BEAST WITHIN

I HATE MYSELF FOR ALLOWING THE HURT AND PAIN TO OVERTAKE ME

I HATE MYSELF FOR ALLOWING ANGER IN MY HEART AND SOUL

I HATE MYSELF FOR LOVE TO BREAK DOWN THE WALL THAT WAS BUILT

I HATE MYSELF FOR BELIEVING IN BEING SET FREE

I HATE MYSELF FOR BEING INCAPABLE OF HATING OTHERS

I HATE MYSELF FOR BECOMING SOMEONE DIFFERENT

TO PROTECT MYSELF FROM THE LIES, HURT, DECEIT

I HATE MYSELF FOR NOT SEEING THIS SHIT SOONER

I HATE MYSELF FOR WORDS UNSAID

I HATE MYSELF FOR SEEING THE BEST IN PEOPLE

I HATE MYSELF FOR BEING TRUSTING, GIVING TO THOSE WHO DON'T DESERVE IT

I HATE FOR ALLOWING DEPRESSION TO TAKE OVER

 

I REALLY FUCKING HATE MYSELF

 

 

My Dear{Trust} - Choose love instead.
Choose forgiveness instead.
Choose peace instead.
Choose to cherish you instead.
Learn from this and grow with that knowledge, then move forward into an ever evolving, ever changing, ever improving You. ❤
3 years ago
HEAVEN'S STARCHILD​(switch female) - Forgiving others is easy, it's forgiving myself that's so difficult to do.
3 years ago
My Dear{Trust} - And You are exactly who you need to show this grace to. Forgiving yourself and making peace with yourself creates and builds strength. You can do it. I believe in you.
3 years ago
HEAVEN'S STARCHILD​(switch female) - Ty ((HUGS)) 💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜
3 years ago
Coltic - It would be so nice and easy to choose all that instead. Knowing every single line and ever single word down to each and every letter. I tend to agree with that. Time and time again people made me put up my walls. Each time thicker and higher. Then someone would come along and chip away at it till there truths only became lies. Now I turned to the one thing that's kept me going. My dominant side my rules I set keep me from having to question them. Cause the rules are just that. If a dominant breaks the rule the submissive can walk and the same said for the reverse. Internal scars can't be after cared so easy.
3 years ago
Curiousmind​(sub female){Owned} - ❤️
Hate is a very strong word. The things you’ve described…you shouldn’t hate yourself for it! You should prize yourself for it!- for being a decent human being, for being able to love and trust, for being able to be understanding, forgiving, embracing the difference.
The only thing that should be hated in your words is the actual condition “depression “ but to conquer it I believe you need to learn to love yourself first.
Please remember when you say you hate yourself, God whispers in your heart “ I love you”. When you say you hate yourself, a dear friend of yours says “ I need you” . When you say you hate yourself, the one who is meant to love you back finds its impossible to do so.

The enemy in your words has a name “hatred”. De-friend yourself from this enemy. Easier said than done but necessary to gain freedom 🌈
3 years ago
Coltic - God Haha, what a made up joke. Just like scientology. All religious are made to make you feel something gives a crap about us. God helps those whom help themselves. Let me tell you. I been helping myself for a very long time and no one has help me. I fight and push on by my own very day and it has nothing to do with god.
3 years ago
My Dear{Trust} - Comment deleted by poster.
3 years ago
Curiousmind​(sub female){Owned} - Coltic, I am sorry you went through much hurt in your life. You are entitled to your own opinion but i think it’s not nice to ridicule someone’s faith. I personally don’t like the word religion. I came to faith supernaturally without even opening the Bible first. The faith helps me immensely. Your words won’t diminish my faith. We are here to encourage each other not put each other down.
I love the sense of community on this site.
Lets embrace kindness, compassion instead of negativity
3 years ago
Coltic - I am not putting down you beliefs. I am making my opinion. If I doesn't agree with someone doesn't mean my belief is any less right. If I sat here waiting for someone to help me I would be bored. It not negativity I am suggesting just a different point cause I been there. To use it, to not wait on anything to help yourself. I guest I may not be getting the point across right or being misunderstood. I have had to rely on myself so much it's the only way I can be. It what got my though it all.
3 years ago
My Dear{Trust} - Comment deleted by poster.
3 years ago
My Dear{Trust} - Comment deleted by poster.
3 years ago
My Dear{Trust} - coltic- So... why come to a blog post by a woman who is obviously struggling and cast more negativity onto the pyre?
Adding fuel to the fire of anyone who has become internally negative and destructive is a toxic behavior ... something most Doms i know would avoid doing.

This really does back to the old adage...if you can't say anything nice STFU! 5 minutes ago
3 years ago
HEAVEN'S STARCHILD​(switch female) - Thank you ((HUGS))
3 years ago
Curiousmind​(sub female){Owned} - Thank you my dear! The world needs more love, more kindness, more encouragement, more embracing of people not being critical and negative. Negativity doesn’t build people up… only love , kindness and patience does
3 years ago
My Dear{Trust} - QTee, I stand by what I said above. A GOOD Dom would not allow you to speak so negatively about what is his. He would know that when you do so you hurt YOU, that you hurt his property. So this one didn't prove true. The next one may. Keep yourself forth at One Day Dom and speak positivity so as to better take care of you for him - and, more importantly, take care of you for you
3 years ago
Coltic - Cause I agree with what they wrote. That I have had the same thoughts from the same experiences. If you don't like my opinion that's your opinion. You have no right to to tell anyone to shut up over an opinion. That's what wrong with the world.
3 years ago
My Dear{Trust} - I have every right, and I stand firmly on if you cannot be supportive, positive, and encouraging, don't say anything. All either of your comments did was argue with others and cast further negativity. Nobody needs that.
3 years ago
Coltic - I stated the same was done to me and made me feel the same. To point out I relate to what they wrote. Let me get this understood. If people or a person makes someone feel as the poem states which in fact has happened to me. I have all the right to agree with what was written in the poem. And state it cause that is my opinion. I think it was worded well. For the emotions people cause and make other feel because of their actions. Getting your emotions out there is best then holding it. Letting people understand whom you are because of their actions is hard. She is fighting an up hill battle and I applaud her. Knowing what she goes though and getting the words out I say keep it going. The best people to help yourself is you. I seen it and gone though it.
If you do not agree with me that is your choice to say I dont agree with your comments. To tell someone to in your words. STFU. Listen to what you preach. Cause that is not my choice of speech. I been fighting for my life from 3 months old and keep fighting daily.
3 years ago
HEAVEN'S STARCHILD​(switch female) - I'm going to hide this post, 💔💔💔💔💔
3 years ago
Morley​(sub female){Max Sterne} - I will go a little sideways then the others did, although I agree with both mydear and Curiousmind.

Getting these words out - saying/typing them can relieve it from being bottled in, so I say good for you for getting it out. ❤️🤗

Now, though, is the tough actions. By letting it out, you must try (like in choose) to keep the hatred out. It festers as you know. I also know that we don't choose depression either. It is an ugly monster that consumes many, many whom my heart and arms wrap around (myself included).

It's important to try to find something positive EVERYDAY... As little as it may seem, it's vital that you do!

You are gorgeous, you are courageous, you are amazing YOU! Hold tight to that, especially when it seems too hard in those depressed times.

We are here for you. To listen, to support, to build you up and encourage your positivity.

Thank you for being brave and sharing! Know you have support and we love you! 🤗❤️🤍
3 years ago
dollMaker​(dom male) - I relate to what you have written above, at times in my life those words could be mine. Depression, whether mild or more, is a horrible thing. I too know its presence. I hope you find the light in the shadows you need, and soon.
3 years ago
My Dear{Trust} - I am really really glad you brought this back out of the shadows. ❤❤❤❤❤
3 years ago
SweetSirRendering​(sub female) - i am glad you didn’t silence your voice! cry out. im here and listening to your music right now.
3 years ago

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