I would like to thank everyone for their support and reaching out after my heartbreaking post. I ended up hiding the post because i felt that it was going to turn into a heated argument and that's not what i wanted for anyone.
Then i realized, why hide, why run? That's all I have been doing for the past few years even though running was the best for me to do at the time. I'm not the type of person to cut people out of my life ( i even hated to do this to 2 of my brothers). I'm just tired of being such a kind, trusting and giving person just to be taken advantage for a person's personal needs and nothing more.
It's fucked up that anyone going through some shit by the hands of another, be made to feel worse is even more fucked up. I pay attention and I learn along the way. There are things i have learned now that i wish i knew beforehand. We all are going through something no matter the severity, we should be there for one another here more than ever.
One thing i have definitely learned is that an easily triggered person, will project onto others in one form or another. I refuse to allow that energy here when I have enough of that at home. I will speak my truth, if you like it fine, if you don't fine. Alot of us have been/ or is in the same damn boat.
The second thing i have learned (and this doesn't apply to everyone but if it offends you, you better take a deeper look within) In my honest opinion, a dom (could also apply to a sub/ slave etc as well) is a person who is not only attentive to those who gave up their entire being to them, but to show them that same respect and care in return. I don't care about experience, it doesn't mean shit to me. What is important is the person, their heart, soul, and how they treat others outside of the community.
Lastly, vetting. I believe this could have saved me from numerous depressive episodes and self hatred.
Thank you again to those who reached out, giving me hope and strength to stay and keep moving forward. sending you all love and ((HUGS))
