You are waiting on man, who has turned back on you, while your heart is shut for someone, who would give all you ever wished for..and now ask, if this waiting is really worth it, sabotaging own happiness, when one, whom you wait isnt even thinking about you? One, that is on your mind, he is fully focused on physical world, enjoying life. He is focused on physical body, looks, sexual connection, working, having time with friends and simply enjoying life, and emotional connection/family and stuff in his life is somewhere down there, after all mentioned above, while you crave emotional affection, family and true commitment. One, who is on your mind, he might like you, but as much to have sex and nice time together, but not as deep to truly fall in love with you and be wanting to commit. He isnt right one for you, you arent right one for him. He will fall in love one day, with his right person. While you wait on him, live in delusion, that one day he will come to you and give all you ever wished for, every day, that it doesnt happen, you make step towards depression on own. You hurt self with expectations. You hurt self and self sabotage your life being attached to this man, dreaming of him and trying to manifest him into your life, while he has no intention to be in yours. For sex maybe, but nothing more. And you have set so high boundaries around your heart making your energy unapproachable for other men to reach out to you and offer something legit. Well, they might give hint, try, which is very unlikely, but you would anyways push them away as you wait on that one, who isnt willing to be there for you. So, why you so much chase someone, who doesnt show interest into committing to you and not give chance for self to be truly happy and be with someone, who would give you attention you deserve? Is that ego? I want him and I will get at any cost? Is it hard to accept, that you made wrong decision and fell for someone unavailable and truth would hurt too much? Is that thing, that you dont take "no" for answer and stubbornly think, that you can make other change their mind? Dont you think, love should be mutual? Love should just be there without challenges? Where both show interest? Where it just flows. Where it isnt made hard to be. Where two people simply commit, because it feels right? There is man, who wants to give you everything. He is emotionally open, romantic, wanting commitment and have actual energy of "prince on white horse". Question is, will you still wait on "that one" to reach out to you, or you will finally release that unhealthy attachement, heal and open your heart for true love.
By She, who transforms