I would like to think that we women have a super power or 7th sense if you could say which is....premature grief.
It is often discussed that women grief something long before it actually happens. This is usually in context to relationships. When a man and woman break up they man often says..."When I was breaking up with her...she showed no emotion. Like she expected it" that is because she did.
Months, weeks, days or even hours before she was on the phone or alone in her room balling her eyes out, loosing her mind about "The feeling". That heart wrenching ache, unsettled stomach feeling. Medical personal have told stories of how their patient behaved besides themselves the day and hours leading up to their death. As if they knew they were dying.
That is the feeling woman feel...we feel the death of relationships. Sometimes we know which relationship sometimes we don't. And I feel as though I ignored my grief....I had a week where I just felt a sense of impending doom but I ignored it thinking I was just sick. Today that feeling has come back 10 fold and i am gutted. The thought of having to let go of a relationship that is so dear is heart wrenching.
Letting go is hard but I have learnt when you understand that not everyone will be in your life forever and that you should rather think of the beautiful memories made and time spent together rather than the fact that the relationship ended it is easier to let go.
So here's to 2025 the year i learn to let go...Salute!