Free will is an amazing thing. So i took myself to my first ever BDSM event.
This year I told myself that i really want to put in the work and put myself in BDSM spaces. So i did. I found an event not too far from my place and i signed up. I was supposed to be going with someone but never got too. And almost did not go because i was scared to go by myself. But put on my big girl panties and i got ready got in the uber and went.
A few minutes before arriving i had all these crazy thoughts being the dramatic person I am. I thought "Omg what am i doing, i am going to be killed, they will sacrifice me, i will be human trafficked" lol. I arrived and i was let in and it was my best decision i have made. IT WAS AMAZING. From how accepting and friendly everyone waas, to the conversations, to the play rooms. it was amazing to say the least.
It was really just such a beautiful sight to see the Doms interacting with their Subs. How the Doms handled their subs when they were in their sub space which was such a bitter sweet for me. None the less. It was beautiful
I can now fully say i am a bondage girl or what they call call a rope bunny...there was a rope master there. And the level of intimacy and intensity when he was tying his subjects was breath taking. It was so intricate, he touched them with such delicacy and care. We had our own moment where there was this unspoken connection. He even guided me on how to tie someone up and he gave her to me and i "played" with her for the rest of the evening.
i don't know what it was, but i slipped into subspace. It was so peaceful, i was really giddy, and just like hazzy and my speech was slurred? But i really enjoyed myself. they have an event on last saturday of each month. and i hope to attend all of them
Can i go into subspace without being dommed?
