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Murmurations of Me

As much as being a sub courses through my veins, I have this other-worldly yearning to try and explain what all of this is doing to me... So I’m going to try, day by day, to put my scrambled thoughts into written words in the hope I find my own clarity...
4 years ago. Friday, October 15, 2021 at 8:22 AM

Stop panicking, no I didn’t have one…! But I have a very big question to ask of you all, and I can only hope you will indulge me. 

So a statement first: I have never had a one-night stand. Yes, there have been opportunities. Yes, I’ve fooled around. But, I’ve never ever had a one-night stand.

A bit of background to why I’m asking this: first off, no I’m not looking at anyone in particular, no I haven’t found someone, no I haven’t even remotely considered the implications to be brutally honest. But is is something I’m considering doing, just because I haven’t really. I’m quite unsure of myself at the moment, but I may have the opportunity in the coming weeks should I pursue this. Also, it wouldn’t be a kink-one-night stand either - just plain old vanilla sex. I suppose I’m looking on it as furthering myself in the life of kink as I have had many offers of playmates without sex by some fabulous people who understand that the two may not go hand in hand for me personally (also something I hadn’t considered before), and so believe I should try one before trying the two together for my own mental well-being. No, this isn’t something I’m jumping into either but is genuinely something I’ve been also considering from a psychological perspective.

 

So now comes the question(s):  

Is this something you’ve done/do? How do you just go for pleasure without knowing the person deeply? Is there pleasure? I’ve always always wanted that connection with someone because, as a sub, my greatest pleasure comes from giving them pleasure. But I’m left with all these questions of “what if”. I’m also absolutely terrified of getting attached! 

Sooooooooo… Indulge me, if you will, and give your ten cents to probably the most ridiculous question on here, but one which is actually quite serious for me in all honesty. Dos and Don’ts gratefully accepted! 

MLP

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