Sometimes in dark times, you can look back at all the good times and be grateful. Be thankful you were able to experience such times, such simple joys, or such peace. Thankful for the people who were there for you, who listened to you, who were your rock of strength. Friends, and especially, family. And thankful for all the fun times you were able to have for so long.
Everything ends, I suppose.
At least the good times were there, to remember and look back on, and be grateful for.
This week has been a blur. I won't share my family troubles on an erotic-themed message board, but I've been sad, anxious, depressed, and lonely with nobody to really share it with. Nobody to talk to or commiserate with. I don't like emotionally dumping on my friends, and I apologize if that's what I seem to be doing here. Don't get me wrong, you people on this site are awesome, but I don't really know any of you in person. And every day, it's been literally endless, foggy, grey skies, an unchanging thirty two degrees farenheit every day, like it so often is in this town in January. That doesnt help.
So, speaking of grateful, I was never a particularly big fan of the Grateful Dead. I had tons of college buddies who were though, and I was subjected to countless hours of their music. Though at the time I thought most of it was, frankly, pretty boring, I find that SOME of it- not all of it but SOME of it, has kind of grown on me where, if nothing else, I can listen to it and it will bring back some happy nostalgia for those days. Good times with fun friends when I was young. But everything ends, I suppose.
The band's co-founding member passed away a couple weeks ago. I believe that out of the six original members, only the drummer and the xylophone/percussionist are still left. Even if you disliked everything the Dead ever recorded, you can still at least be thankful that their music brought so many people so much joy for so long.
In dark times...
All I can do is pray for sunshine daydreams.
I'll just leave you with this. Next post will be more upbeat. I hope.