Thank you for making this place and the guidance you've shown in looking out for all of us here. Very grateful to have a place that i can come to that's welcoming for everyone and it doesn't leave me anxious and stressed out when i leave either. Its awesome. Thank you xxxx
So things have been odd for a while in many places but i didn't expect it to be above my door..... litterly. A box with wiring has magically appeared above every residents door frame in my building.
Which means its the building management company a company that no one can find an office for.
Its kinda creepy here. I really hope its not to keep an eye on internet with me visiting here.
Shouldn't be happening but... can you imagine the conversation of saying why you want to opt out (if it's even possible)
'I erm visit a site on the internet' .. awkward
Yes i tried to sleep... like many other nights .... im just not having it apparently.
Weirdly my brain has shut off but sleep eludes me still.
Stupid sleep pattern going all screwy
Its 4am and still wide awake ... but can i get up even at 10am ... erm... nope.
It will be zzzz until about 2pm
Then im stuck like this at 4am
Yeah i did it to myself ..... be a great way to get stuff done while its quiet at night...
That worked out really well thanks brain!
Sometimes you have to hit bottom before you can climb back up. The question becomes what is 'hitting bottom' because unfortunately hitting bottom is what is needed before you can climb up.
It's the getting back up that counts.
Keep the faith. Nothing lasts forever.
(For anyone who needed to hear this)
Xxx
Seeing as my brain hurts and im tired of thinking its time for some rock music. Time to stop thinking for a bit. This is the first up followed by queen, acdc, van hallen.... *if only vodka was in the freezer* shrugs cake will do.
Since you've been gone by rainbow
Here's the thing
We started out friends
It was cool, but it was all pretend
Yeah, yeah
Since you been gone
You're dedicated, you took the time
Wasn't long 'til I called you mine
Yeah, yeah
Since you been gone
And all you'd ever hear me say
Is how I picture me with you
That's all you'd ever hear me say
But since you been gone
I can breathe for the first time
I'm so moving on, yeah, yeah
Thanks to you
Now I get what I want
Since you been gone
How can I put it? You put me on
I even fell for that stupid love song
Yeah, yeah
Since you been gone
How come I'd never hear you say
I just wanna be with you?
Guess you never felt that way
But since you been gone
I can breathe for the first time
I'm so moving on, yeah, yeah
Thanks to you
Now I get what I want
Since you been gone
You had your chance, you blew it
Out of sight, out of mind
Shut your mouth, I just can't take it
Again, and again, and again, and again
Since you been gone (Since you been gone)
I can breathe for the first time
I'm so moving on, yeah, yeah
Thanks to you (Thanks to you)
Now I get, I get what I want
I can breathe for the first time
I'm so moving on, yeah, yeah
Thanks to you (Thanks to you)
Now I get (I get)
You should know (You should know)
That I get
I get what I want
Since you been gone
Since you been gone
Since you been gone
Remember the dates were you would just talk? Get to know the person? Consider yourself lucky if you got a kiss at the end.
The look that would happen when you connected with the person the feeling that would follow.
No counting down the dates until number 3 with the aim to be getting into bed but to know the person.
The kiss that would set fire to the pit of your stomach, that you could let go and just enjoy because the kiss was that good. Again with no other aim but to feel a connection through kissing rather than it a stepping stone to the next point.
Or checking you got home safe after dinner. When was the last time you had dinner and just talked with someone.
Now a text does the job. Or if your lucky one five minute date over coffee. Is it any wonder every time i try to get back out into the dating world i find that dating somehow doesn't include dates. When did that happen? You hit date 3 and they just assume your up for it, what if instead you wanted to invest time ? The one commodity that no one seems to have anymore, time.
Trying to make plans and organize things to find out that you have to change your IP location and watch Australian news to find out what restrictions are in place 30miles away .... why doesn't this surprise me.... oh that cos AT&T, Disney and UBS bank all owned by the same people hovered all competition up and im now left trying to work out the different restrictions on different parts of the UK. It really shouldn't be this difficult to find out local restrictions.
My dyslexic brain is not made for this, at least i know how to look up news in Australia lol
That wikipedia was a valid scientific source of evidence..... would have help a lot during uni. *sarcasm*
Be good to know the method of research model used by wikipedia. Ah yes.... 90s kids messing up entries for fun to see if anyone noticed.
*smacks head repeatedly against desk.... its like watching science melt. Who references wiki? Like really? Talk about masochistic tendencies... i can see the memes now
Ive lost so much weight ive dropped two dress sizes. Normally i would be going woohoo but i can't go shopping.... nothing is open.
So im sorry to everyone for the huge trousers that im now walking around in and having to pull up all the time.... i suspect that soon i might have to develop some sewing skills lol
..... so .....
Ive decided everyone is an idiot including me.....
Im tired of being scared its not good for you
I hope your all okay x
Im exhausted
If you think whats coming will be kind to you...
Your in for a surprise and not a good one.
We have each other..... love you loads xx
Feeling really blue xx