Im unsure if other subs would be inclined to agree with me but control is one thing i have over many aspects of my life, it is needed and it is who i am and it keeps me safe. I am this way inclined in all things except one...
For me to utter the word sir, it is a sign of trust that i can give you this responsibility of me surrendering control.
For me to kneel takes time and shows a depth of connection.
However..
my eyes still shine defiant, and this is how they stay, i like to test new Doms to see how the D/s style would work, some see this as bratty it doesnt stay well the bratty doesnt but.. whats life with out a bit of fun... ooops did i forget to do something exactly as you wanted ?
I am very strong willed and a pain in the backside to many, i dont see that as a bad thing, it depends on compatible styles.
I will happily be bound without the need for rope but for that to happen you must show me that i can kneel in your presance that it is earned and justified, this is what makes me feel safe and happy. This takes a long time to build and there are not many who take this time to build it, the sad truth is even after being built it can be broken very eaisily.
Recently i have started to notice a decreese in the 'i am your master...' type messages however they have been replaced with the ' hi i am ...... i am looking to make friends how have you been ?' ect then two days latter 'send me pic of x y z if you wish to be mine' or the 'we get along so now i own you' OR the i am the 'head honcho and the buck stops with me as i am boss man and earn the big bucks' ... seriously... yawn....
Let me make this very clear, i am my own being, i have free will and i decide how to use it aka control over my own decisions. I chose to submit out of my own freewill. It took the last dom six months to a year to make me kneel...
This may be extreem to some but it is my piece of mind that is my priority, i am so fed up of the i own you noncense and yes it can go past just being rude words, after a couple of dates some men even in vanilla land have some twisted notion that you owe them something, that is not so.
It takes more than 2 or 3 dates for me to sub and sticking your hand down my top just because no one can see does not count.
I am a grown woman and know how to look after myself, dont doubt that for a moment.
Rose
(sorry for the rant.. just had to be said)
