I know this can be a touchy subject but i feel it needs to be addressed. I overthink a lot, it's in my nature, i can't help it. I've been doing some reflecting on my past year and experience in bdsm. I've come to the conclusion that i have issues with rules regarding masturbating and orgasms.
I've always been very sexual and learned long ago how much stress is relieved with orgasms. For the past several months I've been feeling more and more out of control, lost, stressed, etc. To the point that there are some days im just completely emotionally unstable. I realized that the start of this decline lines up with the time i stopped masturbating every day. As i did so less and less, my mental health declined more and more.
Sure i should have realized this sooner but I'm glad i did now. I'm stubborn and try to keep up a tough exterior as that is what is demanded of me in my personal life. I hate admitting to a problem with what i perceived as a simple and standard task.
Anyway, my point is... everyone is different and everyone's needs are different. What is standard for one may not work for others.
