My joy abounds. I am happy. He wants me to be HAPPY (feel). I have gone away, I have floundered. I come back to my open cage where my Daddy holds me and I feel at peace. Still I can fly, still explore, knowing He is there He is there. I didn’t imagine it. It was challenged and I failed but I have learned as well. I can’t leave, I don’t want to. The wanting, the patheticness- it can go now. I already had it! I just forgot, Daddy says I forget a lot and must be reminded. Ohh how I love to be REMINDED. I think I still need him, although things have gotten much easier. I don’t have to worry about sex anymore (feel) or my salvation through it - if he is sexual with me then I must NEVER say no and if he isn’t then I must focus and do what is in front of me to do. And not throw a fit or become manipulative. I am comforted, I am well, listening to thunder rain sounds and knowing He will again contact me if I am good. I have grown in my understanding of submission, I know what I have to do. And what I must refrain from. I am a very lucky girl. I was treated incredibly well given what I have done and I will now show my allegiance to Him.
3 years ago. January 15, 2022 at 5:35 PM