Many moons, many thoughts

PS

My devotion  spirtuallity 

I evolve before you..

To be always enlightened

To always be More true always humbly a student of this earth.

May my Innocents always seek Truth and mystic ways.

I will no longer turn away from The hot and holy mess 

That can never be cleaned And call this progress 

For my wild tenderness of my innocents to seek and see love or pain.

I admit that I am 

Forest and ocean:

Disorganized Art 

Made of Medicine 

I commit now,

To learning that language That will never make sense 

To ear or brain 

The one of belly and feet and 

Deep womb of Heart 

The one that does not explain A single thing 

The one that does not need you To understand 

 I do not consent To the narrative That I must overcome 

How completely out of control It is they say....

To care this much 

To feel this deeply 

To hold the entire universe in My belly 

If they could only they could feel what I see! 

I will not attempt to 

Colonize Or conquer The wild in me 

I will no longer undo my waves 

I am done pretending 

The truth is My heart is made of a million Tiny Insect wings 

I bow to the feet Of the sensitive one 

I now embrace The immensity Of power 

Known 

When I walk the razors edge Of that which is so delicate 

You must hold your breath To hear it’s voice 

I am here for the language 

That is shaky and Uncertain 

That is slow like honey So slow the mind Can’t catch it 

I no longer consent to the idea 

That the unkempt longings Of my soul 

The unbearable heat of my Desire 

The immaculate fragility Of my skin 

Should be neatly sorted Fixed 

Sewed shut Or understood.

It demands from me An irrational submission A Total Devotion 

I no longer defer To the language, values and customs Of the conqueror 

I honor My willingness To be touched by life 

To taste the wisdom that is only Revealed 

When I admit The impossible situation 

Of just how entangled I really am With every

Single 

Thing 

I no longer turn away From the bare naked truth 

To the threads my heart has woven 

To the wild truth that cannot be uttered 

Even by the most skillful tongue 

This is the language That has been called 

Crazy

Irrational 

Wounded 

Weak 

Inferior 

And 

Immature 

But now I am learning 

That the wide open truth 

That can hold it all 

That can pulse with the passion Beyond reason 

This, Is what I am living for 

It is the language of Soul 

To hold the flame 🔥

The winter solstice time is no longer celebrated as it once was, with the understanding that this is a period of descent and rest, of going within our homes, within ourselves and taking in all that we have been through, all that has passed in this full year which is coming to a close... like nature and the animal kingdom around us, this time of hibernation is so necessary for our tired limbs, our burdened minds.

Our modern culture teaches avoidance at a max at this time; alcohol, lights, shopping, overworking, over spending, comfort food and consumerism. 

And yet the natural tug to go inwards as nearly all creatures are doing is strong and the weather so bitter that people are left feeling that winter is hard, because for those of us without burning fires and big festive families, it can be lonely and isolating. Whereas in actual fact winter is kind, she points us in her quiet soft way towards our inner self, towards this annual time of peace and reflection, embracing the darkness and forgiving, accepting and loving embracing goodbye the past year.

"Winter takes away the distractions, the buzz, and presents us with the perfect time to rest and withdraw into a womb like love, bringing fire & light to our hearth".

.. and then, just around the corner the new year will begin again, and like a seed planted deep in the earth, we will all rise with renewed energy once again to dance in the sunlight

Life is a gift 💜 

Many winter blessings to you all...💜

Anthony Hopkin’s fabulous insight..

′′Let go the people who are not prepared to love you. This is the hardest thing you will have to do in your life and it will also be the most important thing. Stop having hard conversations with people who don't want change.

Stop showing up for people who have no interest in your presence. I know your instinct is to do everything to earn the appreciation of those around you, but it's a boost that steals your time, energy, mental and physical health.

When you begin to fight for a life with joy, interest and commitment, not everyone will be ready to follow you in this place. This doesn't mean you need to change what you are, it means you should let go of the people who aren't ready to accompany you.

If you are excluded, insulted, forgotten or ignored by the people you give your time to, you don't do yourself a favor by continuing to offer your energy and your life. The truth is that you are not for everyone and not everyone is for you.

That's what makes it so special when you meet people who reciprocate love. You will know how precious you are.

The more time you spend trying to make yourself loved by someone who is unable to, the more time you waste depriving yourself of the possibility of this connection to someone else.

There are billions of people on this planet and many of them will meet with you at your level of interest and commitment.

The more you stay involved with people who use you as a pillow, a background option or a therapist for emotional healing, the longer you stay away from the community you want.

Maybe if you stop showing up, you won't be wanted. Maybe if you stop trying, the relationship will end. Maybe if you stop texting your phone will stay dark for weeks. That doesn't mean you ruined the relationship, it means the only thing holding it back was the energy that only you gave to keep it. This is not love, it's attachment. It's wanting to give a chance to those who don't deserve it. You deserve so much, there are people who should not be in your life.

The most valuable thing you have in your life is your time and energy, and both are limited. When you give your time and energy, it will define your existence.

When you realize this, you begin to understand why you are so anxious when you spend time with people, in activities, places or situations that don't suit you and shouldn't be around you, your energy is stolen.

You will begin to realize that the most important thing you can do for yourself and for everyone around you is to protect your energy more fiercely than anything else. Make your life a safe haven, in which only ′′compatible′′ people are allowed.

You are not responsible for saving anyone. You are not responsible for convincing them to improve. It's not your work to exist for people and give your life to them! If you feel bad, if you feel compelled, you will be the root of all your problems, fearing that they will not return the favours you have granted. It's your only obligation to realize that you are the love of your destiny and accept the love you deserve.

Decide that you deserve true friendship, commitment, true and complete love with healthy and prosperous people. Then wait and see how much everything begins to change. Don't waste time with people who are not worth it. Change will give you the love, the esteem, happiness and the protection you deserve."

Love Mr Hopkins 💚

Shared from @peaceandlove

You are loved just for being who you are, just for existing. 

You don't have to do anything to earn it. Your short comings, your lack of self-esteem, physical perfection or social economics success.

None of that matters. No one can take this love away from you and it will always be here. 

So when you experience pain from anger... please don't push anger down.

In some house holds anger is a dirty word, we are taught to bottle it up or swallow it down to deny or suppress it until its hidden even from ourselves.

The trouble with this approach is that it has big consequences, your anger has a riotous presence. Unresolved anger often lies beneath a persons depression. To depress something is it push it down. It also weakens the immune system, Also know to be an underlying cause of anxiety and a major risk in the cause of psychosocial hearts disease.

We see it as violent, aggressive and out of control. Yes anger can throw punches and shoot guns, but remember it can also saves lives and changes laws to all for the greater good.

So knowing this, there is also a crime we commit against ourselves, when we start to believe NEGITIVE thoughts. But they are just thoughts, old habits and patterns. so we need to look at them assesses them and distinguish between fact and fictions.

in other words we have thoughts that are reasonably valid, that are useful that causes us to be content and happy and to help ourselves and others, That's called LOVE which is kindness, forgiveness, generosity.

And then we have low self esteem and anger and fears and anxiety and jealousy, some how the unhappy ones come without being invited don't they!

But we can actively, proactively have positive thoughts. 

Every second we are programming our mind, we are turning ourselves into the person we become, so when we understand that the person we become is created by our thoughts, then we can start to have this confidence.. Its my mind I can become familiar with it and I can turn it into whatever mind I like...this is the actual cognitive process itself.

So we need to become familiar with it then we have to have the courage not to be scared of what is there....learn to write a new script..

Also the most common story I've have listened to sat next to a dying fellow human is this...

My greatest regret is that I did not follow my heart. But I did instead what other people expected of me!

This is the most painful gaining of knowledge I've ever experienced.

I know this much the most painful way to die is with REGRET OF A WASTED LIFE...

We need courage to do what we think is most beneficial instead of all the time the fears that have bound us since we have been tiny ones.

We are afraid to upset people, we shouldn't  do that, we might get blamed its not the right thing, or i cant do that its just not possible.

we have to have such courage you know to brake these unhelpful thoughts.

But I Say this... Always always aspire to do what is beneficial for you and others. No one is sure what they are doing! we all wing it my beautiful humans.

Just wake up in the morning you lead the life that you have got right this second and you think, what ever is most beneficial may I do it.

Just like you are walking on a road, the road is your life and you are not sure where the turn off is. But every day you aspire and that nourishes the seeds you've planted and one day you will go there with consideration and carful thought that this is the right thing to do and you will make the tough choices if you have to. remember this takes great courage, but what a beautiful way to live our lives...

Side note.. in my non eloquent way is...

own your shit my people.. 

Author me for those who are gate keeping...

so many blessing brothers and sisters. Always.

She sat at the back and they said she was shy,

She led from the front and they hated her pride,

They asked her advice and then questioned her guidance,

They branded her loud, then were shocked by her silence,

When she shared no ambition they said it was sad,

So she told them her dreams and they said she was mad,

They told her they'd listen, then covered their ears,

And gave her a hug while they laughed at her fears,

And she listened to all of it thinking she should,

Be the girl they told her to be best as she could,

But one day she asked what was best for herself,

Instead of trying to please everyone else,

So she walked to the forest and stood with the trees,

She heard the wind whisper and dance with the leaves,

She spoke to the willow, the elm and the pine,

And she told them what she'd been told time after time,

She told them she felt she was never enough,

She was either too little or far far too much,

Too loud or too quiet, too fierce or too weak,

Too wise or too foolish, too bold or too meek,

Then she found a small clearing surrounded by firs,

And she stopped...and she heard what the trees said to her,

And she sat there for hours not wanting to leave,

For the forest said nothing, it just let her breathe' 💜💚💜

Grandma's wisdom...

My child stop casting pearls to swine.

If people are not listening to you,

stop talking to them.

Be careful where you spend your energies my sweet one.

If you want to see them..stop talking and start watching them. 

without a word from thier lips they will show you who they are.

Stop offering what you have to say to all.. look, watch with your minds eye and  heart then it will become clear to you.

Find your people who want to hear you. Do not devaluate what you have to say by casting your pearls to swine.

Don't you just love Grandma's!

Blessings 💜🕊️💜

Songs from my heart

I am the rage of all women condensed to the point of explosion

I'm the silence of violation finally broken

I am the joke behind the eloquent feminist slogan

And I will not behave myself

I am the cheap labour and the overpriced beauty promotion

I'm the time bomb of pathological consumption approaching

I'm the child of mother earth and the dirt in her ocean

And I will not behave myself

Under the skies and out of control

Get ready for my dangerous soul

Unshakeable heart

Unstoppable change

Now I see the bars of this cage

I am the point of entanglement of oppressions interwoven

I'm the confusion of the patient, her unspoken emotion

I'm the story of all my sisters' resistance unfolding

And I will not behave myself

I am the flame of erotic power in motion

I'm the object of lust and the end point of loathing

I'm the wave at the source of structural violence erosion

And I will not behave myself

Under the skies and out of control

Get ready for my dangerous soul

Unshakeable heart

Unstoppable change

Now I see the bars of this cage

Under the skies and out of control

Get ready for my dangerous soul

Unshakeable heart

Unstoppable change

Now I see the bars of this cage

I am the moment of peace and the constant commotion

I'm the weight of collective conscience awoken

I'm the space for the rebel to revolt in

And I will not behave myself

All we've been told

We've been told is just another story

All we've been sold

We've been sold is just a rich man's story

Under the skies and out of control

Get ready for my dangerous soul

Unshakeable heart

Unstoppable change

Now I see the bars of this cage

Under the skies and out of control

Get ready for my dangerous soul

Unshakeable heart

Unstoppable change💜💜💜

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