Thoughts From A New Me

     ? ...How do i find me... ?

      How do i find me ?

~ In a sea of emptyness 

~ In a field of forever 

~ In the desert sands of empty promises of nothingness 

~ Deep in the forest of forgotten knowledge 

~ Down in the bayou of forgetfulness 

~ In the sky's of tragedy 

~ Out in the ocean of drowning souls 

~ In the eyes of children and forgotten wonderment 

~ In the hearts of men with shattered souls 

~ In the obis of darkend silence 

~ In the spaces in-between the shadows of chaos 

~ Beyound the realms of what is seen, felt, or heard 

~ Inside a mind of many 

~ In the face of evil doers 

~ In-between the pulse of a beating heart 

~ In the realms of magic and mayham 

~ In the heart beat of another's soul 

       How Do i Find Me ? 

Reading poetry today has brought out a bit of my poetic soul. 

Thank You 

FlitterFly... :):):) 

DawnRobin 🥰

What I want... 

I want tasks and assignments. 

I want structure and rules. 

I want care and encouragement. 

I want understanding and compassion. 

I want consequences and explanation. 

I want forgiveness and care. 

I want to be secure in who I am and in whom I am meant to be. 

I want to be encouraged to succeed and pushed to strive for a better life. 

I want to be encouraged to reach high, to set goals, and to work until I achieve them. 

I want guidance and love. 

I want to feel needed and wanted. 

I want to give to others all that I never have had. 

I want to make a difference in people's lives. 

I want to be fulfilled in my roles, in my duty, and in my life. 

I want to be wanted and needed. 

I want to not feel, as if all I do is wrong or bad. 

I want to get my GED 

I want to learn a trait, to be dependent on myself, to support myself. 

I want to work on me, how I see myself, and how I treat myself. 

I want to be a good person to help others to see their own worth. 

I want to be a good girl. 

I want to finish what I start. 

I want to hold a job and / or a career. 

I want to work effectively and efficiently. Setting high standards for myself and finishing what i start. 

I want to be dependable in all things and with all people.

I want to be happy, secure, content, in all I am, all i do, and all I will do. 

I want to learn, grow, and reshape myself into a better version of me. 

I want to always be the best version of myself I can be. 

I want to hold true to my word and live my life to the fullest potential possible. 

I want to make the people in my life proud to be there. 

I want to find myself, rebuild myself, and mold myself into a person of respect and admiration. 

I want to challenge myself, and others, in all they are, and in all they do. 

I want to be healthy, live healthy, and bring the right type of people into my life. 

I want forgiveness.

I want to be forgiving. 

I want to conquer my fears. 

I want to challenge myself and strive for exalence. 

I want my ambitions and loyalty to move people. 

I want to be successful, in all I am, all I do, and who I will become. 

I want to live my life to the fullest and have a radiance that blinds the wicked and fills the soul.  

I want to make certain the people in my life can feel secure in knowing they are loved, wanted, needed, treasured, accepted, fulfilled, secure, humbled, seen, heard, wanted, adored, and apriciated. 

These are only some of the things that I want. 

I want 

I wrote this blog three months ago for myself. As something I could come back to and use as a reference. Things I want in my life, and have given to me in return. 

I did not realize at the time, by writing out, saying aloud, and wishing to obtain. 

That i would revisit my draft and find that, in such a short time, I would see so much of the things I wrote, that are already happening and being met. 

There are very few things infact that have not started happening for me, yet.

However, those things will come in time. 

Lifes tends to show to you, that you often get back what you put in. 

If speaking negatively about yourself, you find negative things happening.

And when speaking positively about yourself. 

Damn if those positive things dont start happening, without you even realizing what you have done. 

Thank You 🤗 

FlitterFly... :):):) 

DawnRobin 🥰 

Living The Dream.... 

Good Morning All My Kinky Perverts 

I Have been extremely busy. 

Working out, taking care of what's important, taking care of me. 

I haven't had allot of time to post. 

Been reading blogs as time allows. 

Trying to keep up with all that is going on. 

Working very hard on my spelling 😊 

Also, feeling a bit like when I started on the cage. 

Studying lol 

I definitely have given myself a full amount of work. 

As for smoking, it's on hold. 

For now.... 

With all the workouts, and everything else, I'm trying not to overextend myself. 

Quitting smoking and losing weight at the same time is much like throwing two wild cats together. Lol

But rest assured I will manage to kick this bad, bad, bad, habit. :)

I have also been to the local Salvation Army. 

Talking with the coordinators about volunteering. 

Along with the in home health I provide, and everything else, I am spread thin. Lol  

Here is to not just talking about being in the lifestyle 

Its to living the lifestyle each and everyday 

I'm making hard core changes, proving myself, Improving myself, and putting in the effort, and work it takes. 

Not only to be the best me I can be. 

But to be a better version of myself, a better woman and a better submissive. 

Some workout music I've been listening to. 

Devon Cole - W.I.T.C.H 

The Nightmare Before Christmas 

For Shits And Giggles 

Just Because I Fucking Can

I Wouldn't Be Me Otherwise 

Filthiest Song In The World - Song Parody 

Thank You 

FlitterFly... :):):) 

DawnRobin 🥰

Being Open To Change... 

And Trying New Things.... 

I have been thinking about all that I have learned ever since coming onto thecage. 

With all the work, notes, searching on the web, and all the many, many people I have spoken with.

Especially at the beginning, so curious. 

When first finding this place and all the people here. It was as if taking a fresh breath of air. 

Hell, it still is. 

One of the things in this lifestyle that I have since the beginning been drawn to is the Master / slave roles. 

I believe that I have been drawn to this so much because I yern to not have to think, and just be. 

To have absolutely no thought or worry. 

Also, a dear friend of mine back in Tennessee, she is a service slave. 

And well, like everything eles in this lifestyle. Once seeing real, live, people.

Seeing those people in their roles in the lifestyle is not as perfect and on point, as the books say.

And definitely not what most Masters you speak with will tell you. Lol 

My friend is very outspoken, a lot like myself. 

She is one of the most sincere, kindest, most loyal, loving women that I know. 

Meeting this woman at a munch, getting to know her and her Master, being welcome to their home, spending time in and out of the vanilla world with her. 

I was able to watch the interaction on a day to day. 

Also, why I say this world is made to bend to everyday people and different dynamics. 

It is not a one size fits all type of deal. 

We make this our own. And in each dynamic, the rules change. 

This has been an experience that has been sobering, to say the least. 

Tells me a great deal, showes me a more in-depth view on the different dynamics and people who are in those dynamics. 

Anyway, I only wanted to write here to tell a little about my story. 

What I have found, seen, and have come to realize. 

Hopeing that when hearing and learning this life.

That one never says that they will never. Finding that the word never, should not be a part of one's vocabulary. 

We all change, and with change, we grow. Our eyes open to new things, new possibilities. 

We see things through a different lens. And with that lens, you keep seeing change. 

Not all is what you first think. The way we see certain aspects of this life changes like the seas of the ocean change. 

Don't hold so tight to a thought of never. 

If you are unable to change, how will you ever know if what you like and seek is not but what you refuse to be open to. 

With each day that we open our eyes to something new, something different, we broden our chances of finding and securing a happiness that once was not open to us before.  

Thank You 

FlitterFly... :):):) 

DawnRobin 🥰 

Spelling..... 

Assigning Oneself A Personal Task 

Spelling Words... 

Also, a weekly spelling test given by a close personal friend. 

With many thanks 😊 🥰 

I would like to ask anyone that I speak with, in any capacity, or reads anything in which I write. 

To please, when you see any word misspelled, write the correct spelling of said word. 

I will then, at that point rewrite said word five times.

I will take a screen-shot of the corrected spelling word to use on a list for my weekly spelling test.  

Thank You Kindly 

FlitterFly... :):):) 

DawnRobin 🥰 

Inspired By: TreasureMe

(with permission)

And This Mornings Blog... 😁 

Thank You 

FlitterFly... :):):) 

DawnRobin 🥰 

Enjoy: 

Thank You 

FlitterFly... :):):) 

DawnRobin 🥰 

Loving Myself ❤️ 

This Was Just Some Of The Uplifting Music 

I Listened To While Walking This Morning 

Something I Plan On Doing Daily 

I Wasn't Sure I Would Say Anything 

For I Have Only Just Started 

But Instead I Decided 

That I Wanted To Share With All Of You 

In Hopes That You Will Help 

(Hold Me Accountable) 

A Change Is Gonna Come. 

Working On Me Each And EveryDay

You Are More Than Enough

And So Are You 

Each And Every One Of You

Love Myself 

The Good The Bad & In-between 

I Am Already Enough 

The Older I Get 

I Am Having The Time Of My Life While Navigating My Way 

The Best Things Are Yet To Come 

Eye Of The Tiger 

Everyone Is Telling Her

That She's Not Good Enough 

At The End Of This Song 

She States That She's Not Good Enough 

YET... 

This Resonates With Me 

Because I Am Good Enough 

I Am Already Enough 

And Getting Better Every Single Day 🥰 

To Holding Myself Accountable 

Thank You 

FlitterFly... :):):) 

DawnRobin 🥰

The Gift In The Name Of Kink... 

Many of you know me from way back when I first joined thecage. Some of you have only met me recently. Some know of my life, and some don't. 

But what I am here to discuss with you today has more to do with what, and who I found, after joining in this beautiful community. 

So after talking with an old friend. I was told that I was a strong minded woman. 

(This was said as a complament.) Lol

I've come to realize that finding thecage and all of you on it has truly saved my life. 

When first finding you all, I was in a loveless, lifeless, and horrid marriage. Litterally dying there stuck for over a decade. 

After only three months on thecage and with you fine folk being there, supporting me, teaching me, and even kicking my ass at times. I finally leave this man, my lifeless marriage, and my death, who was calling me way too soon. 

Finding support here, a home, good people, and a new outlook on life. I found myself, I found life again.

Hell, I am not certain I even realized what life was about until I found all of you. 

With this site and this community. 

I found that this place and the people in it are about lifting one another up.

Being good to oneself, achieving goals, truth, happiness, respect, honesty, caring, love, and so much more. 

The list of everything good in this lifestyle could go on for ages. Far outweighs the evil that I have come to find in our vanilla life's. 

I have also found that everything is not always what it seems. It's funny how I am saying this and seeing this more and more often. 

Also, it's just as funny how it always seems to surprise me. But here I am, every day learning something knew. 

Finding that we tend to always think that another in this lifestyle has got it made. 

Fact is nobody does. 

We all struggle, we all have hard times, and we all live in this cruel world. We all get sad, have family issues, are looking for someone who brightens our day, we put on a brave face, smile when hurting.

Not one of us has it made. 

I look at other sister subs, and I see them coming on here, and I think damn this girl has got it together.  

She's strong, intelligent, kind, caring, inspires others, and has that to die for body as well. 

And I'm in awe, a bit jelly, and want more than anything for others to look at me in that same light. 

But, behind the face, she paints. 

She is a strong woman because she's been through hell and made to be strong.

Intelligent, because she put the work in to learn and use what was given to her.

Had she not been smart, she'd be dead now. She's caring, because she knows what it's like to be bullied or abused.

She inspires others, because she herself was never inspired or because she knows what it's like to be inspired.

People look up to her, because she puts the work in on herself, on being the best she can be.

And her to die for body, because she works her ass off to keep it that way. Half the time doesn't even have the time to eat properly.  

Or she may be fighting something darker. 

And yet we never see that or know it. All we see is what we either want to see, or what is being shown us. 

And the same thing with all these men.

Do you really think that there lives are perfect? 

Nope, he may be in a lifeless relationship, hasn't been touched, treated like shit, made to feel as if he is no good.

And we see this great guy and just assume he has it all together.  

Lady's these men are just as vulnerable to our bullshit as we are to there's. They are going through the same hell we go through. 

We See a great Dom, next thing we know is he's the one putting himself down. When we all know he wouldn't dare allow us to do such a thing. 

Makes one wonder why....  🤔 

Hears the thing. We are all just temporary beings, living in a temporary world, with temporary lives, and temporary people. 

We come looking for something that is raw, real, and gives us a feeling of wonder and empowerment. 

And we find thecage... 

We find our kink, our lifestyle, like-minded individuals who share in this wonderful sexual bliss we all need and crave. 

But then as we dive deeper into what all this world has to offer, we find neverland, wonderland, we then sink. 

We fall and fall and keep falling in this wonderous world.

And before we know it, we are forever trapped, changed, and looking through a looking glass from the other side. 

Where people care again, they think outside the box, they lift one another up, they admire truth, honesty, they give respect. 

The list is never-ending. 

We find human beings again. 

This life in the vanilla world, the hell in which we go through, is what makes all of us.

To be strong minded individuals. 

The gift is finding a home, family, care, commitment, compassion, respect, trust, honesty, and the vast amounts of endless and countless people who all came together in the name of kink. 

This is where we learn to grow mature and venture to new heights and other worlds full of wonderment. 

Thank You 

For Being Apart Of My World. 

FlitterFly... :):):) 

DawnRobin 🥰

I Am She... 

I Am She

She Is Me 

Who Is He Going To Be 

Speaks So Clearly Of Me 

One Can Only Dream... 🥀 

Curiosity 

Thank You 

FlitterFly... :):):) 

DawnRobin 🥰