"Hiding Behind A Mask"
This here is RAW Emotion.
Truth in life, and in my journey.
This is NOT to downgrade myself.
Only to show the rawness in my past self.
To bring forth the New, Raw, and Real Nature, of holding one's self to bettering and being free of the past.
To Humbling Myself
To make way for a better version of me.
To set forth a better future ME.
Holding Myself To A Higher Standard.
Learning To Show My True Feelings.
Instead Of Hideing Behind A Mask.
...I have for as long as I can remember...
Been made to step up.
Hold myself high.
Smile when sad.
Be strong when I am weak.
Walk the walk.
Talk the talk.
Hold strong when ready to give up.
Being as real, as one gets.
Truthful to a fault.
Honest as they come.
Strong in the worst of circumstances.
Put on the happy face in desperate times of need.
Hold it together, when I am alone, and scared.
Holding on when there is simply absolutely nothing left to grasp.
Tired, scared, alone, desperate, confused.
Not one soul in sight to call my own.
Not one person who truly cares if I live or die.
Always looking to find another person out there searching for me, as I search for them.
Always coming up short, not enough, or less than.
Made to feel cheap, used, or taken advantage of.
Never being enough, never good enough, and always made to feel as one can do better, or get better, younger, thiner, more timid, a born natural submissive.
Made to feel as if I ask to much, need to much, require to much.
Always being to much, for one to put the time Into.
And made to feel stupid for wanting, needing, or asking for what I know I am worth.
Holding myself true to myself, my feelings, and my responsibility.
Holding myself to a higher standard.
Taking away the mask I hide behind.
Making myself RAW.
For all to see, to know, and to feel.
Raw, Bold, New, Open, Real, Whole.
And All Me.
As Transparent As One Can Be.
Holding Myself To The Highest Standard.
To Humble Myself.
To Let Go Of What Holds One Back.
And Bring Forth The Best Parts Of Me.
Kneeling, Humbled, Willing, And Ready.
To Give Of Myself A Whole New Life.
Brought Forth Out Of Humility And Breaking Free Of Past Ties.
No Longer Bound By Past Lives.
I Give Of The
To Set Myself Free
Thank You
FlitterFly... :):):)
DawnRobin 🤗 🥰
P.S.
Some of you are probably thinking
That I'm trying to find an individual to rush into another dynamic.
THIS IS NOT WHAT MY WRITING TO FIND SAID INDIVIDUAL IS ABOUT.
Sorry if I have made you think otherwise.
Sometimes my writing does not come out as elegant as I would like.
As smooth as some here write.
As well said as some here are able to portray.
I am always learning, growing, and finding myself in this world.
When I connect to someone who is wise
I tend to want to keep comunication open as FRIENDSHIP Regardless of anything eles happening or not.
I look up to said others as a type of mentore.
A friendship is always welcome even when a dynamic is not.
I learn from all.
And I only try to put myself out there for two reasons.
One= and most importantly is for me and me alone.
I am greedy to learn, to grow.
And if I cannot put myself out there and be willing to look silly, mislead, stupid, or vulnerable.
Then where does that growth take me.
Two= To Humble Myself in front of my peers.
To Humble one's self
To show a willingness to fall, fumble, make mistakes, and get back up again.
We all know there are alot of newbies, and alot of people in general, who are to shy, timid, or unwilling to ask questions and or make mistakes in this community.
My doing this is in hoping that by my own mishaps and strengths that one may learn. Also, one may be willing to put themselves out there as well.
How can one learn without a willingness to possibly look foolish in the face of others.
Like the old saying (no question is a bad question or wrong to ask)
Is this not the same thing.
Thank You Again.
FlitterFly
DawnRobin 🥰