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1 year ago. October 15, 2022 at 4:57 AM

This is a term i heard years ago... i was having i very hard time with my PTSD. Looking back im sure it was because i was bathing in my triggers. Kept myself in third gear pinned at all times. It was comfortable, it was familiar... it was my baseline. Hyperaware, hyper-reactive. I wonder how many cardiac events ive had that i dont know about. 

Self mastery refers to being able to control the chaos in your mind. That i admit i still sm learning. 

It is something I find easier to take on when in a dynamic. Being that there is a sense of safety provided by someone other than myself. Im free to help battle my demons along side the hand im under. 

It's a nice thought though...

 

CotrolYourHole - I feel this so much…I hope folks also realize that even for Doms, there is a huge calming & grounding effect from a committed dynamic (just like their is for subs). Having somebody to guide, protect & love makes my self-mastery process feel like a blessing instead of an annoying struggle. Before meeting my sub wifey, my desire to help & protect people was being abused by time-wasters and even the activities I did daily like making music & working out didn’t feel as satisfying as they could have been…now my brain feels better than ever😃I wish you the best of luck on your journey!
1 year ago
RizzoKenickie​(sub female) - Thank you. I hope to provide as much peace as I attain.
1 year ago

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