I have so much on my plate right now... before I can digest one task it seems like two more are added. There is literally not enough time in the day... work is great but ive taken on the additional task of teaching 2 men how to read and write (on my time, no OT sanctioned) so that I have to rush to finish my daily work to meet with them after group. I've been accepted into a training program to further my career which will take an hour away from my work (still no OT sanctioned)... I also have supervision training to complete on my "free time" at work before my boss goes on vacation as I will be the "go-to" while she's gone. I start school again this coming Monday. I also have a male sub offering his submission to me, throughout all this I hesitate taking in a submissive due to my rigorous schedule because I dont feel I have the time to devote to him that he deserves. He is unfazed by my concerns. Yet, I still struggle with the idea of owning a submissive while I have all these balls on the air. Its times like these I wish Tyr were still around... for advice, comfort and mentoring. There is still very much an emptiness inside me. My inner submissive locked away as I navigate life in my masculine because that's the only choice I have. *sigh*
Where is my dominant? Where is my sanctuary and peace?... my safety...
