I have noticed many subs going through what I have gone through and it's so surprising. A lifestyle that is focused on trust and putting your life into someone's hands gets turned into the worst heartbreak possible. My Dom (or ex Dom i should say) went ghost. It has almost been two months since i last heard from him. How can someone who tells you day in and day out how much he adores you, he's never going to give you up, and other things just disappear? Thoughts go racing through your mind. Is he sick? Is he hurt? That was my power to give, not his.
I sent one last email, obviously he didn't deactivate it because it didn't bounce back, that i was healing and i was done with him. It gave a little relief, but i have to realize that will be my closure. I will never forget him and can only hope that i can find a Dom like him but one who lives by his words and not run from them.
I can't thank you enough, Doms and subs, who have given me the support i so desperately needed and being assured that this is not acceptable in this lifestyle.
To those that are currently going through this hurt and torment, be the phoenix you were meant to be. Rise from the ashes and dust yourself off. This will make you stronger than you could ever realize. Do not let him take your power away. You are stronger and better than that. You just don't know it yet.
I will never forget him, but he will no longer take my power away and fill me with sadness and misery. Goodbye Doug.