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The Chaotic Ramblings of a submissive

Welcome to cluster that is my journey to submission, and any other foolery I may find myself in.
3 years ago. October 29, 2021 at 1:25β€―PM

Good Morning LoverFaces! 😘

Recently I have learned that touch & physical intimacy are vital to me… the sexual feelings for me are not enough without the above missing elements. 
*I admit it turned something lovely I had with Sir into something extremely toxic. So let me get real with you guys. I was dismissed for not being able to separate the physical & emotional intimacy from being strictly sexual. I mean it makes sense as it was online long distance but I just couldn’t separate it all. I tried boy oh boy I tried. At the cost of my own emotional turmoil. This is exactly how I know long distance and online is not for me. 

However how does one free themselves from their Sir when it’s over? I still find myself following his orders even though he’s no longer there. I wonder if he would approve of my daily work attire. 

MsDove​(sub female){Eternal Pi} - When you submit to someone, even if it was the wrong one, you have given them a part of yourself. Suddenly they are gone and your safe place is suddenly, and dramatically, gone. It sent me into a free fall. I didn't know how to right myself. It took a few days to begin to regain my balance. It took me a little longer to understand how, and why, I let myself get into that situation.

Take the time to lick your wounds and appreciate yourself for the courage it took to just step forward. You will have learned some valuable lessons that will travel with you into your next, far better, adventure.

Annie ❀ πŸ•Š
3 years ago
subCia​(masochist female) - Thank you for the kind words!
3 years ago
Curiousmind​(sub female){Owned} - The word that stood out for me in your two blogs was “dismissed “ Cia… that’s such a sad word. I am sorry it happened to you! I believe no one should feel like being dismissed not in a vanilla relationship not in a BDSM relationship.
It doesn’t matter whether a relationship is online, long distance or real life …the emotional connection is paramount for the relationship to last a long time.

To me kink is an icing on a cake. The cake itself as the foundation of any relationship should be a mixture of Emotional, Physical, Mental, Soul and Heart connection.
I really hope the right person will enter your life soon with whom you will be able to build a strong foundation before embarking on a power- exchange relationship.

The life is a journey
We learn, we grow, we embrace new opportunities with hope and positivity

May your journey be fulfilling as you continue to move forward πŸŒΊπŸ¦‹πŸŒˆ
3 years ago
subCia​(masochist female) - You give me all the feels! Thank you so kindly. I needed this more than you know.
I am slowly regaining me, and doing things that would be outside of Sirs wishes. I feel like that helps.
Dismissed is a sad work but that was the truth without putting to much out there. I am not here to drag anyone down just to share my journey, so it was the fitting “nice” term I could find.
3 years ago
Curiousmind​(sub female){Owned} - You will shine 🌈 and fly πŸ¦‹ again lovely!
Take time for yourself, and at the right time the right person will enter your life 🌹
3 years ago

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