kikimmy(sub female){Feral brat}

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He came in, and in that moment my heart dropped. I wasnt sure what i was feeling, whether it was fear or excitement. He caught me looking at him and in the moment he asked "should i let you go?". That question made my confusion worse, should he let me go? Should i stay? What would happen?. Without realizing it, i got out of my head and saw him looking puzzled. I havent answered his question yet, but how could I? I had to say something though, anything. I quickly replied back with "oh, i am in control now". What was that? What did that even mean? I didnt have much time to really think about that though because he quickly launched at me and said "excuse me, listen here you little slut, i can keep you as a slave, would you like that? OH MY GOD, why does he keep asking me questions, like I'm supposed to know. Ive never been in this situation before and i can barely figure out what I'm feeling, let alone express it. Before i knew it, he just walked away and closed the door again. There i was in this dark cold basement with no clothes on and cuts on my body. I wasnt cold, maybe it was because I spent most of my time in here trying to understand. I yelled "why don't you be a man for once" the door swung back open faster than I could finish my sentence. "Are you fucking challenging me, you have no idea who you are dealing with". What have i done, could he be dangerous? I mean sure I'm chained up, cut, and naked but none of it bothers me. When he is around me I can see the care and fear in his eyes, maybe he's just as confused as me. After all he did kidnap me.

Into my submissive mind

5 months ago. May 14, 2024 at 5:53 PM

From the beginning we are created with some type of structure. Rules, boundaries, tasks, etc are all slowly laid out for us as we get older. Some of us don't get this, or only get fractures of this. Leaving us to crave more.

My sub space, is my comfort. I overthink, why am I not good enough, why did I have to become like this, etc. When I have a strong present dom, he takes these thoughts away. The embrace of his warmth or the sound of his voice to just bring me back and keep me safe.

A dom is important to me because he knows,cares, and helps me. Sometimes my slave sub comes out more. Sometimes without him, I feel empty, useless, unfulfilled. Just the thought of him, or a strong person in general helps me feel better.

Am I weak? No of course not, my mind is my biggest enemy at times. Just because I prefer to have someone help me battle this and other stuff. Doesn't mean I'm incapable, however it can become stronger than me. When left unattended and I am left alone.

Maybe this is why I hate being alone, what do you think?

Should I go into more detail?

Max Heathen(other male) - To whom are you not good enough? In our need to fulfill roles we sometimes forget that the first person we need to be happy with is ourselves. If we are happy within, our outlook will reflect it back. Are you alone or do you feel alone? Feeling alone simply requires reaching out and being friendly. Hop around on others blogs, be yourself and laugh a bit. Try not to get sucked into the drama 😂

5 months ago

kikimmy(sub female){Feral brat} - I don't feel enough for myself unless I'm serving and doing a good job or taking a punishment like a good slut

5 months ago

Max Heathen(other male) - If that is the dilemma feel free to come walk in my woods for a while. I do enjoy a stimulating conversation...

5 months ago

kikimmy(sub female){Feral brat} - Like call you?

5 months ago

intenseoldman(dom male) - I think what you're saying is you feel more valued as a submissive, "a good slut" than you do in the cookie cutter world you talked about before. Roles are defined, expectations are clear and relationships are structured in the lifestyle. Obviously, you thrive best in your subspace. It's natural that you might feel weak when you don't have the structure your subspace needs... the understanding, care and support along with the tasks, rules, punishments, and rewards ... you know what makes you "feel enough" for yourself... I hope you find it

5 months ago

kikimmy(sub female){Feral brat} - I think you are right and i appreciate you so much 🙏💓

5 months ago

intenseoldman(dom male) - Comment deleted by poster.

5 months ago

WhatamIfightingfor(dom male){CurvyB} - I have found you can only give what you have. I found in life I have to live in a way I can live with myself. For to really be present in a relationship of any form you must be you, for only you can be you. Go be you and follow and listen to your heart.

5 months ago

MDaddyForHer(dom male) - It is difficult. One knows.
Some advice I have and still do offer, if if you are unattached. Uncollared.
You might be able to right yourself, by being good for and to yourself. Eat. Hydrate. Meds. Proper care. In anticipation for the one. The Dom you hope to find. Or be found by.
As a Dom, I try to envision the same for my part. It can give purpose. Hope. And practice. The one who finds you should be that mn uch more appreciative. Peace, Love, and good health I wish for you.

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kikimmy​(sub female){Feral brat}

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Into my submissive mind

kikimmy(sub female){Feral brat}