16 hours ago. Wednesday, July 8, 2026 at 11:16 PM
The last 6 years have been hard. In that time, I lost 4 of the most influential people in my life. My foundation. And none of it was pleasant.
I have compartmentalized so much traumatic shit just so I can function. And I have been at the bottom of the pit, Sparta style. Barely functioning. Hanging by a thread. Fingers torn and bleeding from how hard I hang on.
Shit got bad. Real bad. I feel like a beast crawling from the abyss. Built to function in absolute darkness, failing in the light.
It is hard to feel again. It hurts. Like fire burning from the inside out.
Do I have the strength to rise from the ashes once more?
“I’m tired, boss.”