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Fearing what I need and trying to find a way to enjoy it again

After dealing with abuse I've had a really hard time enjoying bdsm again. But I'm trying to move through the fear and back to where I belong
2 years ago. April 27, 2022 at 12:36 AM

I've been wanting a dom again for a long time now but I've had some bad experiences so I haven't been looking for one specificly. But I was supposed to just go for coffee and a walk with this guy and it started raining so we went back to his place to watch a movie instead. I wasn't expecting anything other than to watch a movie and maybe cuddle with what we had talked about, and even though I can't know for sure I don't think he planned this either cause he wasn't prepared. But we started kissing and as things progressed he seemed hesitant when he went to pull my hair so I told him he didn't have to worry about being gentle and oh boy did he know exactly what to do. We didn't have condoms or anything so not much happened but he told me he wanted to face fuck me, and I told him I was a sub. But I have never ever had someone who knew exactly what I needed without me saying anything, he pushed it right to the edge of the pain being too much but never went over the line and he made everything feel so good. I know I'm going to have bruises for a fee days at least. But I've never felt so comfortable with someone this fast, and it seems like it might actually be a really good match, he's sweet and funny, and handsome and a gentleman and he makes me smile but he also knows how to dom me exactly how I needed it.

Heero​(dom male) - Sounds like a great surprise. Serendipity!
2 years ago
The Captive Flower​(sub female) - It was a first date though so I'm trying to not get my hopes up, as much as I'd love for things to work out I'm so used to things going horribly wrong or getting ghosted I don't want to get disappointed or hurt again
2 years ago
GiannaRay​(sub female) - Yup, same. Good luck!
2 years ago
The Captive Flower​(sub female) - I love being dominated but after experiencing abuse I haven't been able to let someone touch me like this in a long time.. it really terrifies me
2 years ago

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