I've always known I was a sub but after a really bad abusive relationship where the guy I was with claimed he was a dom when he really wasn't, I've had a hard time letting go to be able to submit. But after seeing this guy literally once I felt so safe and was able to just let go.
I literally can't describe the feeling that it gave me, I've got bruises and marks on my breasts and evetytime I feel the ache and sensitivity it brings a smile to my face. I don't have anyone I can talk to about stuff like this but I've missed being able to let someone take the control without being afraid. Or not being afraid of him pushing too far and having to safe word. I'm still scared and I'm still hesitant but the way this man made me feel without actually talking about kink or anything like that also really excites me.
All I said was he didn't have to be super gentle with me when he went to pull my hair while I was sucking his cock. And he literally was perfect, I was right on that edge of the pain being too much and it was so enjoyable.
But fear has held me back for a long time and I think I might finally be ready to let go of the fear, for the most part I know I'll never blindly trust someone again like I did in the past, and just enjoy what I've been wanting and needing