So…..randomly saw the man that broke my heart on FB with his GF. Apparently she and I have a mutual acquaintance. I wish I could say that I had evolved enough to scroll past without a second thought. But no. I blocked her and then blocked the mutual acquaintance. It had taken me years to get over him. The really sad part is that I knew he didn’t love me the whole time we dated (almost 6 years), but I was willing to stay with him because I loved him. I said “ILY” to him once and he said “thanks” in return (OUCH!). And when asked why he never said it I got a whole song and dance about how he was traumatized from his marriage breaking up and he couldn’t say it but that I shouldn’t doubt his feelings for me, blah blah blah. I would have been with him to this day if he hadn’t broken up with me (by text no less, but that’s another issue). That’s right, I would have settled for an emotionally unbalanced relationship. Had I been a stronger person at the time and knew my worth I should have left him first because he wasn’t able or willing to meet my emotional needs.
Lessons learned
1) I am capable of great love and will do anything for that person
2) I deserve love in return
So that’s why I’m still single. I will never settle again. A man has to bring everything to the table with me for there to be any chance of any kind of relationship or future.