HOW TO REMIND A SUB SHE IS SUB
A moment of unintentional clarity.
I have been asked to share a moment I shared with Madboy, but first a little background on myself. I was in a 20 year 24/7 M/s dynamic with my husband who passed away in 2017. It was a beautiful dynamic in which I grew as a person and as a slave. On his passing I not only lost my soulmate, but I lost a dynamic in which I thrived and found peace in an overthinking mind. The loss was devastating and my mind very quickly turned into a chaotic mess and was almost impossible to find the peace I enjoyed for so long. On his deathbed he asked me to promise him that I would continue to work on myself and I would remain abstinent until the right Dominant came into my life. He protected my peace to his very last breath and 2anted to contulinue protecting me after his passing. He knew I needed a Dominant in my life to keep the storm in my mind calm, and thanks to him I knew what I needed from my Dominant. I have kept that promise for 8 years, although the first part of that promise has had its ups and downs. Fast forward to today. In speaking with Madboy2, we were discussing what a dynamic looks like to us, and I was asking his thoughts on a couple subjects within a dynamic and how proper communication is essential within a dynamic. He shared with me three separate writings, the first 2as regarding Maintenance spankings and why they were necessary, the second was about love vs relationship, and the third was about Dominance versus being a True Dominant. In reading the last writing, I started tearing up. It explained the void I have felt for so long and how I longed to feel the safety I felt within a healthy dynamic. Let me share to you what it said.
True Dominance is the ability to whisper softly in her ear and observe as she Obediently removes her clothing. Methodically...one piece at a time. Watching ad she kneels before you offering her entire self to you. Willingly, without hesitation or reservation. She will show you her most vulnerable self without embarrassment or shame. You will know that nothing makes her happier than making you happy. Alter Ego. "
Upon reading that and without putting any thought into the response, this is what I wrote... "Ugh that actually made me tear up a little. That is what I miss the most about being without a Master...being completely exposed inside and out and feeling that acceptance from my Master and him looking my demons square in the eye and telling them they need to contend with him now. Let me be in my feminine and let my mind give in to servicing my Master without reservation with peace in my mind and soul and joy in my heart". Before I reread that message I hit send. It wasn't until He said "Now I see you" that I went back an reread what I had wrote. It was in that moment of clarity that I remembered what was forgotten over an 8 year span, I remembered what I was born for. True submission is a gift that cannot be bought, it cannot be forced, and it cannot be demanded, for true submission is only found in the safety and peace found only in a dynamic that is built on honest communication and leadership from a Dominant that is willing to do what it takes to battle her demons, offer her protection, and give her the tools to find peace withing her mind and soul and allow herself to accept that the most vulnerable parts of her are what makes her beautiful.
This is how you come to understand a subs mind on who she is from my point of view Madboy Master D
