I am sorry I have not posted in a while. I have had somethings happen here in real life and pardon my words it has been a real shit show. Let me start off by saying I do not want anyone's pity I do not need it.
In June I met someone from here and things grew into more then just friends and was set to meet IRL. September 5th at 4:51 AM my mother passed away my father passed away Easter 5 years ago so that left only my brother for family and honestly he couldn't give a shitless about me. This person I met on here ghosted me when I was in need of her when my mother passed away, since then she has spoken to me exactly 2 times today since then. I called and her phone was always turned off so sent me straight to voice mail which she had not set up text messages went unanswered. I am not a fucking dog I don't chase pussy to be with me it is that damn simple as far as I can she can kick rocks down the road and go eat a bag of dicks. Since my mother passing I am be honest I have struggled with depression my mother and I was always very close, I have thought many times of putting a end to my pain. But I didn't because I know how mad my mother would be with me. It is a daily struggle with depression I am taking it one day at a time. I am praying to make one last move before the first of the year God Willing. I am looking at moving to Northern Montana about 50 miles or so from the Canadian Boarder. when I make the move there are a few people who I will stop and see. One of them is from here. To her I have to say I am sorry for just vanishing like I did my life sucks right now and I am sorry for not letting you know what was going on until tonight when you was on and messaged me. You have my cell number and can call me anytime you wish.
If you think what I wrote is a bit heartless it is because I have been fucked over far to many times to give a damn anymore. My trust and devotion had been used against me better then any weapon any human has ever dreamed of making.
To those who have bothered to take the time to know me I hope you understand the person you got to know is the real me not a fake version of me. As I have always said to those who spoke to me "I would rather the entire world HATE me for who I REALLY AM, then a SINGLE person LOVE me for something I am PRETENDING to be."
Here are a few of the new toys I have bought 
One Pair is not enough so I bought 3 sets and will be getting more
very soon and these are not those cheesy ass trick sex store cuffs
these are double locking ones baby.
Yes Electric Clover Clamps because regular ones are not
painful enough. Yes I have a bit of a sadistic streak in me.
Can't have the sub/slave running off now can we.
Also bought a nice metal 4 poster canopy bed as well with lots of nice tie off points
