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1 month ago. February 23, 2024 at 1:34 AM

I am learning to love myself and what my worth is. It is hard to see myself for what I am truly worth because I feel as if I am being narcissistic I have always been hard on myself and seen my flaws. Since Valentine's day I have been looking at myself and what I have put myself through and in a way I was punishing myself. I came to realize that I am worth more then what I have been shown.

 

Anyone who doesn't like the fact I'm not going to be used and hurt anymore can move on down the road because I'm a good man with a good heart and a caring man. 

2 months ago. February 14, 2024 at 2:45 AM

Is a Dom not human with human feelings and emotions? It seems I am not suppose to have feelings or emotions.

 

I have worn a mask all my life; nobody knows or understands me.
They think I have it all good...look harder and you will really see.
I love you, Mom, and I'm really trying to find a way.

That's part of the reason I am who I am today
But I'm on the right track; I'm determined to find my way.

All because you said you loved me and it will be okay
I used to live each day with no hopes for tomorrow
Walking with my head down filled with shame and sorrow.

1 year ago. October 20, 2022 at 4:56 AM

I am sorry I have not posted in a while. I have had somethings happen here in real life and pardon my words it has been a real shit show. Let me start off by saying I do not want anyone's pity I do not need it.

In June I met someone from here and things grew into more then just friends and was set to meet IRL. September 5th at 4:51 AM my mother passed away my father passed away Easter 5 years ago so that left only my brother for family and honestly he couldn't give a shitless about me. This person I met on here ghosted me when I was in need of her when my mother passed away, since then she has spoken to me exactly 2 times today since then. I called and her phone was always turned off so sent me straight to voice mail which she had not set up text messages went unanswered. I am not a fucking dog I don't chase pussy to be with me it is that damn simple as far as I can she can kick rocks down the road and go eat a bag of dicks. Since my mother passing I am be honest I have struggled with depression my mother and I was always very close, I have thought many times of putting a end to my pain. But I didn't because I know how mad my mother would be with me. It is a daily struggle with depression I am taking it one day at a time. I am praying to make one last move before the first of the year God Willing. I am looking at moving to Northern Montana about 50 miles or so from the Canadian Boarder. when I make the move there are a few people who I will stop and see. One of them is from here. To her I have to say I am sorry for just vanishing like I did my life sucks right now and I am sorry for not letting you know what was going on until tonight when you was on and messaged me. You have my cell number and can call me anytime you wish.

If you think what I wrote is a bit heartless it is because I have been fucked over far to many times to give a damn anymore. My trust and devotion had been used against me better then any weapon any human has ever dreamed of making.

To those who have bothered to take the time to know me I hope you understand the person you got to know is the real me not a fake version of me. As I have always said to those who spoke to me "I would rather the entire world HATE me for who I REALLY AM, then a SINGLE person LOVE me for something I am PRETENDING to be."

Here are a few of the new toys I have bought

One Pair is not enough so I bought 3 sets and will be getting more
very soon and these are not those cheesy ass trick sex store cuffs
these are double locking ones baby.

Yes Electric Clover Clamps because regular ones are not

painful enough. Yes I have a bit of a sadistic streak in me.


Can't have the sub/slave running off now can we.

Also bought a nice metal 4 poster canopy bed as well with lots of nice tie off points

1 year ago. June 6, 2022 at 1:05 AM

It's easy to take off your clothes and have sex. People do it all the time, But opening up your soul to someone and letting them into your spirit, thouhts, fears, hopes and dreams that is truly being naked and shows the greatest trust one could ever show another.

1 year ago. June 1, 2022 at 9:08 PM

Often times it is in the darkest shadows one will find shimmering light of hope. One thing I have learned from some of you on here is never give up the search for that ray of light in the shadows no matter how dark it might seem. Hopeless is only hopeless when you give up hope.

You may be struggling with what seems like something that can not be over come. Always remember this there is someone out there who will listen to you and try to help you. The Difference between defeat and victory is the will to keep pushing forwards thought everything thrown at you and coming out on the other side. You might be battered and bruised but the wounds will heal the bruises will fade but you will always know you did it and there was nothing or no one that could stop you.

 

Along this line a couple of you know a bit of my medical back story. Those who don't I will tell you. I am 51 years old now when I was 26 years old 3 different doctors told me that by the age of 30 I would be crippled in a wheelchair unable to walk because of a birth defect in my back and only way to fix me was put steel rods in to hold me together and had a 50% chance of walking. I felt so much anger and self pity I became mean and bitter. I met a young man in a chat program called Virtual Places it was run by the search engine Excite we called it VP for short. This young man was always there to talk to me no matter what I did or said to him it was like I could not get rid of him. One day his real life sister who I was friends with as well came to me and Thanked me for being a friend to her brother. She told me he was a quadriplegic (Had to google how to spell that one lol) said he typed using a mouth stick and I was his only friend. Turns out he was 16 and crippled before he could even walk. I left that night thinking "How dare you be so mean and nasty and bitter when here is this kid 16 never been able to walk or any of the things I can still do and take for granted." I looked in the mirror of my mind and saw a monster I did not like. I changed that day that child was my light in the Shadows of my own self pity and despair. In 2004 Christmas time I saw another doctor who done X-rays on me he showed me and my now Ex GF and said I do not know how you can walk or how you can stand the pain you live in, because you should be on meds to control the pain (I have learned to focus my mind elsewhere to control it) you should not be able to walk but I know you do and you only have a slight limp. I told him the Mind is a amazing thing when you learn to harness and focus it on a task.

I am still walking and yes I still have the limp it is a bit worse but I am walking 21 years past when was told would be crippled in wheelchair unable to walk. I still have not had the surgery and most likely never will.

If you read this and find yourself in a dark place like I was and you feel there is no one you can talk to know that I will be here to talk to you and be your light in the shadows that seem endless just as that 16 year old boy was for me all them years ago.

I tell this story not for pity or sympathy but to maybe help one person see that all is not lost.

Sincerely
ShadowWolfDancer "SWD"

1 year ago. May 27, 2022 at 8:38 PM

Tomorrow I will be moving house to a new state. No not the state of Insanity or Mental Confusion (some who know me would say that I have always lived there lol) they are just sad cause the voices in my head only talk to me and not them lol. No I am moving from Indiana to West Virginia then hopefully with any luck in a few months will make one last move into a house I buy. I have looked at one that I liked needs work done inside dry wall hung which I can do. It is a old church building plenty of room to set up a "Special Area" with nice sound proofed walls so as not to bother the neighbors who might be around. Don't need cops showing up to what looks like a church with a steeple and someone screaming inside might send the wrong impression to the responding officers lol. I will be back when I can get the internet up and running at the new place till then I will be writing stories that I will be sharing in future blog posts.

1 year ago. May 26, 2022 at 8:11 AM

As I write this it is 1:15am I can not sleep I went to bed shortly before 10pm the night before and was awoken by this vision is the only way I can describe it. Real yet not real at the same time. What follows is what happens and is what woke me from a sound sleep and refuses to allow me to go back to sleep until I put it down.

 


The Lesson \ Gift

The day starts out as any other day for her little did she know this would be no ordinary day for her.
Her day starts out she wakes up feeling horny so she starts out with a bit of teasing of her self just to get her self a bit wetter. She reaches over and from under the pillow next to her she pulls out her trusty vibrator. She knew it would work as she had just replaced the batteries the night before when she had used it to help her relax before going to sleep. She rubs it against her now damp pussy feeling the head of it press against her lips she fumbles around under the covers and turns it on it emits a loud buzzing hum she feels the vibrations resonate threw her body as she arched her back at the feeling. She knew she would not last long before she would feel waves of ecstasy wash over her. She pushed the buzzing toy deep inside of her gasping as it entered and stretched her to the limit of her body. Working it in and out moaning louder and louder until she could feel her release building and she let out a howl of pleasure as she thrust one last time deep inside of herself. She laid there for what seemed like hours unable to move because every time she tried to small orgasms would happen causing her to spasm once more with pleasure. Soon she had to move as her bed now had a wet spot from her. She forced her self to get up and shower as she had things to do today. She could not lay in bed all day even though if it was her Birthday and her boyfriend and her had a fight the night before she would not allow this to bring her down. She moved nude through the house to the shower adjusting the water nice and hot steam rolling out of the shower. Her boyfriend who had already left for work without so much as a kiss or Happy Birthday had taken his shower like he always did freezing cold. She masturbated a few more times in the shower using the shower head on the pulse mode upon her still aching clit. Once she was done she returned to the bedroom and pulled out her favorite pair of black lace panties and slipped them on along with her jeans which hugged her hips and body in all the right places, slipping on a white silk top with no bra her nipples standing erect poking through the thin material for the world to see slipping on her high heel shoes she leaves the house without her cellphone climbing behind the wheel of her car and drives to town.

Parking the car at a lot and paying for the day to leave her car there she stops and gets her self her Ice Coffee to drink while she done her shopping. What she did not notice is there was a windowless van that was parked on the street with a man behind the wheel watching her every move. She goes into a lingerie store to buy her self something new to take her mind off the fight she had with her boyfriend the night before and to make her feel better about her birthday. She thought to Hell with him I am the one wearing this he always buys me things that look so trashy and cheap. I am getting something I like this time I am the one who has to wear it and besides I have his bank card so he can pay so price is no object for me today a wicked smile crosses her lips. She enters the store and a 20 something pretty young girl greets her with a cheery “Hello is there anything I can help you with today ?” she replied I am looking for a birthday gift, the young girl giggled a little and she realized what she thought and quickly said oh no it is a birthday gift for myself my boy friend and I had a fight last night and he left his bank card and I think he needs to buy me a present to make up for the fight. The girl giggled once more and said “Well how much does he need to spend on your gift?” she smiles and said a lot. The two of them move threw the store looking at different sets and making a pile of them for her to pick from, when a man in his early 50's over 6' tall long blonde hair and a beard with streaks of white in it walks in the young lady stops and asks “is there anything I can help you with sir?” He replies back no I am just looking thank you. The phone rings and the girl hurries to answer it while the girl is the phone with a customer about a problem and a return. The man wonders around the store looking at items. She notices him looking at her as he approaches her and asks her can you help me please. She says maybe I don't work her he laughs and says no but your about the same size as the person I am buying for could you help me pick out a few things to maybe buy please I would be so grateful. She smiles and says yes he tells her she really likes black and lace but he is unsure of anything else what would she as a woman like to get? She picks out a nice bra and panties set she had personally been looking at and decided against. They were very sheer and see through with a bit of lace. He smiled and thanked her and quickly paid for them and left. Thinking nothing more of it she picked out 3 outfits and a new toy for her boyfriend to buy her. She leaves the store and moved to go back to her car and was planning on getting some lunch also on her boyfriend. As she passed the van she noticed the man she had help standing next to it with the door open and she went to speak to him when he leaped forward and grabbed her bags and all tossing her into the van and closing the door all in one motion. She tried to fight him but was quickly subdued. Her hands where cuffed behind her back her ankles shackled and fastened to her wrists so she was laying face down in this van she was gagged blindfolded and noise canceling ear muffs placed upon her ears. Her sight, hearing now gone her ability to fight back or even scream all taken from her in less then 60 seconds. Her mind raced as to what was about to happen to her as she felt the van start and pull off. What was to become of her she felt sorrow as she remembered the fight the night before and the way she had spoken to him. Now she would never be able to say she was sorry to him for any of it. The van bumped along for what seemed forever to her in her state of being blindfolded and deaf. The door opened and the man stood there taking in the sight of her helpless. He roughly grabs her and pulls her to the edge of the door where he unfastens her ankles and removes the headset. He warns her she is not to try to run and takes her shoes from her she can hear the barking of what sounds like large dogs. He tells her if you try to run the dogs will catch you. You are here now until we decide otherwise do you understand she nods as a tears flow from her eyes behind the blindfold. She steps out of the van with his help his hands rough and callused feel like sandpaper against her soft skin. She feel gravel beneath her feet with she finds hard to walk on as it pokes and gouges the tender soles of her feet she falters as she tries to walk. He picks her up and carries her over his shoulder as if she is nothing to him.

Inside of a small room her blindfold is removed and her eyes struggle to adjust to the bright lights as the room is painted white making things seem brighter. As her eyes adjust she looks around and sees items some she does not know what they are other she knows what they are and her mind once more races at the thought of what will be done to her with these items. She sees a large wooden X in a corner with eye bolts along the edges. She sees a wooden stock she knows what that is from old movies but what is it doing here in this room? She seems a medical exam table with leg stirrups with leather straps on them as if to hold the legs in place. There was a wall of with items hanging upon hooks with whips and rope as well as other items. What the hell was going to happen in this room she wondered. Panic and fear raced through her mind and across her face. She thought this man wont let me out of this room or this place I have seen his face and can id him to the police. She started crying and begging through the gag. She was lead over to the stocks her hands freed as she had her head and hands forced into the stock and a large lock placed on it so she was now trapped. The gag was removed and she was informed you will does not matter in this room you can scream as loud and as long as you like this room is sound proof and it is underground so no one will hear your cries and cry to shall. She yells and swears at him calling him every name she can think of he only laughs and explains to her that is going to cost her dearly she will learn proper manners before her time is done in this room. She hears a rustling behind her she strains her neck to see what is going on behind her but can not move her head o see. Soon he returns with a set of sheers like is to removed clothing at the hospital. She realizes what he is about to do and pleads with him not to do it he only laughs and says your will here is not your own I will do what I wish to you. With that he cuts a slit in her top and rips it off exposing her breasts and erect nipples and tosses it a side. Next he cuts her jeans off of her tossing them aside with her top. Stopping for a minute to admire her nice firm ass covered by her favorite black lace panties. She pleads with him not to cut them off and explains they are her favorite pair and it is her birthday today and this could be his gift to her. He laughs says oh it's your birthday ? She says yes it is praying to play on a bit of sympathy from him. He asks how old are you today then. She hesitates he says lets just look here at your ID and see. Hmmm I never would have guess your age I thought you was younger. She blushed slightly and thanked him. She could feel the cold steel of the sheers against her ass as she begged once more not to cut her panties off of her to no avail. He cut the panties off and laid them on the floor in front of her face to see what he had done. She cussed him once more. He simply said my my what a mouth you have on you birthday girl. I think it is time for your birthday spanking what do you think? She begged and pleaded No please No. He walks over and pulls a short riding crop off the wall and swings it a few times warming up with each whoosh she cringes expecting to feel the sting across her now naked exposed ass. He asks are you ready and as she starts to mutter No she feels the sharp sting of the cross across her exposed ass and she screams in pain. He tells her lets hear you count off the strokes because I might lose focus and lose count and we wouldn't want to give you to few or to many now would we. She sobs and said One through tears, he stops oh did I forget to tell you when your here you will call me Sir or Master it is your choice so pick one now. She sobs what ? With that there is another sting of a stroke across her ass raising another red welt as she screams. He say if you fail to call me by my proper title then you will be punished so you understand me? She says Yes Sir though sobbing and tears. Now lets starts over where was we? She says 2 sir he chuckles and says no we was at 1 and you got one for not using a proper title for me. So how many are we at now? One Sir another sting shoots through her bare ass 2 sir 3 sir and so on until her ass was one giant red welt she could not see but she was sure her ass was bleeding from the crop.

He moved her from the stocks and cuffed her hands behind her back once more. Moving her to the center of the room where he tied a rope to the cuffs behind her back and tossing it over a pipe in the rafters pulling it taught forcing her to bend over as her arms were pulled backwards the rope was tied off so she could not straighten up but had to stay bent over the shackles around her ankles now replaced with a spreader bar forcing her legs apart further throwing her off balance a bar is placed just above her knees to keep her from trying to close her legs at the knees. He asks her how does this feel? She replies with it hurts and sucks Sir. He chuckled once more it gets worse before it gets better. A single FUCK slips from her lips and he turns and says what did you just say ? She quickly says Nothing Sir. He squats down and says I could have swore I hear you say the word FUCK and Fuck Sir. She quickly says No Sir I did not say that. He lifts her head and says so are you calling me a liar ? No Sir so you did say it then No Sir I did not so I am a liar then. She seen she was not going to win no matter what she she admits Yes Sir you are right I did say that word and did not say Sir with it I am sorry Sir. Well now seems that the crop was not enough so we will have to do something else now wont we. She simply says Sir? He looks at her and says yes what is it? What are you going to do Sir? You will find out soon enough. He comes back with a TENS unit and pads she knew what this was and what it did she had a pulled muscle in her back once and use it to help ease the pain but what was he about to do with it now? Pulling out the sheers once more he trims down 2 pads and places them on either side of her clit and 2 more pads on her inner thighs and connects them to the unit placing the unit on her back as he returns with a large hook with a knob on the end and a eye on the other as well as a short length of rope. Since I noticed the crop had made your pussy soaking wet we shouldn't need lube for this now should we. What is that Sir she asks scared and nervous. This is a Anal Hook care to guess where it is going to go he chuckles. She starts to squirm to try to get away as she has never done Anal. He reaches down and scoops out some of her pussy juices and covers the knob end with them, spreading her red ass cheeks he forces the knob into her ass stretching her asshole beyond where she thought it could go screaming as the knob slides in and her asshole seals around it. Quickly he ties a know on the eye of the hook and grabs her hair and pulls her head back and tied it with the rope so is she drops her head even the slightest the hook will be pulled deeper into her virgin asshole. How does that feel ? It hurts you bastard!!! Oh there it is again your lack of manners and the lack of respect for my title. Fuck you and Fuck your Respect and most of all FUCK YOUR TITLE SIR. Really now I thought we was past the lack of manners and swearing stage. He turns on the TENS Unit and sends electrical shock through her clit and thighs. Causing her to scream in a mixture of pleasure and pain her vibrator had nothing on this TENS Unit for causing a orgasm. She suddenly dropped her head when the Unit was shut off causing the hook to be sharply yanked deeper into her causing her pain. He moves around to the front of her and says with a evil twinkle in his eye now since you seem to be enjoying yourself so much don't you think I deserve a little pleasure too? She rolls her eyes up and meets his gaze seeing the look in his eyes she knows what he has in mind but she is powerless to stop him. She thinks I could bite his cock what would he do he hasn't already done to me? Before she could respond. He had his semi hard cock out and was shoving it into her open mouth with a warning do not bite or use your teeth or you will know true suffering do you understand? She nods her head as best as she can. Good he says as she starts to suck his cock as best as she can she feeling him growing harder with each passing stroke. He turns the Unit back on once more causing her to spasm with waves of electric passing through her clit. His cock now fully hard he starts shoving his cock deeper into her mouth causing her to gag slightly. Before he cums he stops and withdraws his cock and tells her Your a good little cocksucker you know. Gasping for air she looks up at him and whimpers Thank you Sir. Have you Learned you lesson in manners and swearing now? Just as she goes to reply he ups the power on the Unit causing her to gasp and scream YES SIRRRRRRRRRR. Good we have one more thing for you.

He removes the hook and the pads from the Unit and lets her stand back up her arms, shoulders and back all aching from being in that position. He leads her over to the X she first saw and he asks her do you know what this is ? She replies No Sir. It is a Saint Andrews Cross. I want you to stand facing it please. She looked at him this was the first nice thing he said to her and she was shocked by it. He removed the cuff from her. She stepped forwards facing the cross. He leaned forward and whispered into her ear close enough she could feel his hot breath on her skin. I want you to place your hands one on each leg of the cross. She did as she was told to do. Spread your legs so they also match the cross, she complied with out hesitation. He uses soft rope to tie her hands and ankles to the cross so she could not move. You seemed to like the crop I have a couple more treats for you. She trembled at the sound of his voice there was something in it that invoked fear and excitement at same time. He pulls down a leather flogger. At first he softly plays with her Ass teasing with it softly swatting with each one she moans and whimpers. Feeling the leather against her skin waiting and longing for the next one to come. Soon he is using the flogger to deliver strokes as it is meant to be used. There is a growing puddle at her feet and on the floor. He asks would you like something else? She replies I would like what ever Sir would like. Good you have learned well. He pulls out a wooden paddle about the size of a ping pong paddle and shows it to her she moans at the sight of it. Soon he is rubbing the wood so cool and hard over her ass. How many should we give you Birthday Girl? That is up to you Sir it is your will not mine. He laughs and says you have learned very well. He delivers several strikes and stops. I think you have had enough pain. Would you like some pleasure ? I would like what ever Sir would like me to have.

While she is tied to the cross he slips his erect cock into her dripping wet throbbing pussy she gasps at the feeling. She has never felt like this before in her life. Used and abused but also love wanted and needed. He fucks her faster and harder causing her to gasp with each thrust as he drives deep then the last time. She moans with pleasure and begs him Fuck me harder I am a dirty little slut for you to use as you wish. He thrusts once more harder then before and shoots ropes of cum deep inside of her pussy. She feels his scalding hot cum explode deep inside of her and she doesn't care she doesn't know him and that he is not wearing a condom all she knows is she wants to keep his cock and cum in her and be breed by him over and over again. She learned that surrender can be its own gift and reward that day.
He untied her from the cross and she collapsed into his arms from sheer exhaustion and pleasure she had never know before today.

They went home together and made love several more times that day each time paled compared to their time in that room alone. As they lay there in bed she asked her boy friend how he knew about her fantasy that he had just given her. He smiled and said did you forget your manners and my Title shall I remind you once more he said with a sheepish smile, she could feel the sting of her ass still and herself growing wet once more at his words she replied No Sir I am sorry Sir.

I hope you enjoyed the story

"SWD"

1 year ago. May 25, 2022 at 1:19 PM

Beneath the graveyard
1 year ago. May 25, 2022 at 12:36 PM

I want to share this with you all and I hope that you do not look down upon me as a Dom for what I am about to share. This will not be one of my normal posts other then it comes from what is inside of my heart as all my others do.

I will start this out by saying yes I am a Dom and yes in the past I have been a sub but I am by no means a switch. My past is my past and it gave me lessons that I learned which help me be a better Dom I feel it allowed me a insight into the mind of a sub.

I am above being a Dom a Human Being with feelings and emotions that I normally can keep bottled up and contained inside never allowing anything to show through my outer shell even when sad mad happy or excited it all stayed contained inside of me never bleeding through to the surface it made me a hell of a person to play poker with because nothing ever showed there was no tells I was always away of everything I did and showed no smile crossed me lips and twinkle in my eye nothing it was as if they was facing a dead man. This scared many people I have met in life and was even told I was a scary son of a bitch when first met but once the person got to know me they seen I was not the monster they felt thought me to be. When I was in collage and I was 20 years old a group of guys made up a story about me because I was so cold quiet and kept to myself never speaking to others around me sitting alone. The story went that I was a Ax murder on the run from the law and I had killed my family with a Ax and was not hiding in collage. After a few weeks of being in collage one of the guys because a friend of mine and he told me the story and gave me the nickname of Ax. I asked him do you still think that I am the person you thought I was? He smiled and said no your a really nice guy we had you all wrong.

I WILL NOT MENTION MY subs name even though she is not on here it is a matter of respect for her even though what she done does not deserve it I still feel the need to show it.

Fast forward 31 years to the events of this past Saturday May 21st 2022. I woke up excited and happy and it showed on my face even my coworkers noticed I was smiling and they remarked that they had never seen me smile and be happy in the almost 3 years of working with me. I told them I was happy because my sub was coming to see me for the first time in real life and I was going to get to spend time with her (I have been alone in real life for now over 9 years to be exact 9 years 3 months and 8 days at that time) so to say I was excited is a understatement to say the least. I came on the computer to tell her good morning (she was a late riser never up before 11am myself work required me to clock in at 4am so I would wake and dress by 3:45am I live 2 blocks from my work) I slept in a bit this day I did not get up until 7am got dressed and went to the gas station I worked at as a opener to get myself a Monster and a bit of breakfast as I did not feel like cooking. Then I come on and wait to see my sub I jump on discord where we liked to talk on camera and I see her come on extra early (I thought something is wrong she said her father had a heart attack like event and had went to the ER so my mind raced what is going on is her dad ok) so I message her asking what is going on is everything ok are you still coming to see me today? I get the message that deep down inside I knew was coming but denied it until I read it. The message read she would not be coming to see me and would no longer be with me as she was scared of her feelings for me and that I was to good to be true there had to be something wrong with me cause no one was at kind or as loving as I was. Before I could say a word I was blocked (less then 60 second).

Last night Tuesday May 24th 2022 I went to bed early was not feeling well and have not been since last weeks events. I lay in bed and I realized I was a Broken Dom no longer in control of my emotions or feelings. Something inside of me is now broken I do not know what, I do not know how to even go about fixing that which is now broken. I felt and still feel as if I am the only person upon the face of the Earth a feeling I would not wish upon anyone. I feel like a ship lost at sea in a storm of emotions with a broken mast up able to control his course tossed about at the whim of the waves. I have never felt this before it frightens me. I know in time I will regain the control I once had over my emotions and feelings. Till that time I am a Broken Dom nothing more.

I post this not for pity or sympathy but maybe to help others understand that a Dom \ Domme are at the end of the day Humans with emotions and feelings as well.

Sincerely

ShadowWolfDancer Broken Dom

1 year ago. May 22, 2022 at 8:03 PM

Ok so the other day I went to Walmart (Asda for those in the UK not sure about rest of the world sorry) I was buying some supplies for a visit that was going to happen but never did long story short version is I was dumped the day before was suppose to come see me anyway.

I grab my shopping cart (Trolly) and I am making my way around the store first stop Bird seed (I got a parrot she needs food) then I swing over and buy new pillows, underwear (See story before), bought flowers (it was mothers day cant forget mom), beard oil and beard cream, Body spray, towels and wash cloth, Carabiner clips, wallet, rope, Giant Stuffed Teddy Bear, Lube, KY Yours and Mine pack of lube, Condoms (2 boxes), night time cough syurp, tooth ache meds to numb (I grind my teeth in my sleep and causes pain I do it so hard), underarm deodorant, Hair bands, Hot Pink Long Dog Leash,bottle of Coconut rum and a can of Monster Energy Drink. I refuse to use the self checkout I am not on the walmart pay roll so why would I work for them. This cashier starts ringing things up and is looking at me like WTF kind of crazy shit is going on at his house do I wanna know maybe or maybe not. Is the impression I was getting from her. I had to fight the urge to say shit I forgot the Tarp, and Adult Diapers I will be right back.