To my understanding

Its taken me decades to understand my heart, it seems to be immensely vast and full of exciting things. yet it has trouble had trouble communicating with my brain. Even with its size, it tends to fill up quickly and intensely. I've never been a “normal” person, I’ve never been able to maintain what “normal people call relationships, or in my case vanilla relationships. Jealousy, greed, and hypocrisy have all been part of why these relationships implode inside my heart, leaving black holes on the curtain of my universe. I've come to think about my heart as just that, an immense universe with different layers, yes layers that you could maybe compare to those of a tree or an onion, or even maybe the rings around Saturn.

Each one of these levels occupies a level of hierarchy within my heart and as a relationship grows it enters deeper and deeper into those layers sometimes occupying multiple layers. I’ve had many people travel this universe, some stay in the outer reaches, such as good acquaintances or friends, others grow stronger and deeper, as we start sharing experiences and history, and others get to the innermost levels where the necessity of physical touch isn't even necessary to be able to know and feel the passion and love between us. Those you confess your darkest fears to, those who get to know your darkest secrets and stay by your side no matter what. We all have needs and desires, a plethora of things during our lifetime, not all of these things can be supplied by one person or even a group of people. By being sincere about what and who I am I’ve encountered a vast variety of stars to fill my universe with.

Bonds that each on its own has a story, a past a present, and a future. And each one is different because we are all different, and we are all looking to be happy within ourselves and with others. some of these bonds will leave black holes in y universe, some will forever enter my soul and become one within my heart. As for today, I am happy to understand how my heart works, I have beautiful relationships that maintain the balance of the energy within me, and even when some may implode into black holes, my other bonds grow stronger every day because only with trust and sincerity do bonds becomes unbreakable.

At the beginning of this weekend I was showing a friend some writings I had started developing about what the basic rules of any relationship should be and she told me that it sounded childish, that the way I was developing it was to start-uppish for her taste. That a person that is already in this lifestyle should already know those things, that woman like herself who is already inside this lifestyle would not be moved by what I was writing. In the end what she told me was to pull no punches, to put what I really am out there and ask for what I really wanted to get back.

I gave it some thought over the weekend and wrote a little something. I told myself I shouldn't be scared of scaring away newbies because of my way of thinking and doing things. And besides, the reality is that we all have our vicissitudes and flaws, none of us are perfect. So why shouldn't I put myself out there, and ask for whatever it is I want.

I've been in this lifestyle for almost twenty years now and my evolution as a Dom has carried many faces, but I've never been more myself than at the beginning when she used to call me “Master”, and that is what I've always come back to. I am one of those who loves having someone at my beck and call, I like being serviced when I want and how I want with no ifs, and or buts. I call, you come, I ask you give without asking why, plain and simple. I enjoy the fantasy and personality of the Gorean sub-culture that exists within this lifestyle, why not it is a beautiful way of coexistence for a couple that is willing to please one another as a Master/slave couple. And that is what I am looking for, a lifetime partnership with a partner who knows what she has to offer just likes to be told how to offer it. I live in Puerto Rico and am willing to relocate within some time, I do have my own business and that will take some time to get going in a new city.

My partner should know that I wake up around seven in the morning expecting to be serviced, she should already be washed and in the “nadu” position by my side awaiting my command. My toothbrush and a washcloth are ready so that we don't waste any time and are able to enjoy every second. After work, I expect her to receive me at the door and once I post my entrance she will greet me graciously. After we eat and catch up with the day's happenings and other important familiar and work-related things she will belong to me for the rest of the night every night. To me, nothing is more important than the attention I can provide to someone who would serve me in such a manner.

I said I wouldn't pull any punches so here it goes I love rough sex, I am a very demanding person when it comes to playing and if it was for me I'd have a session every day of the week, yes I know some would say this is not possible but of course, this isn't a regular day for anyone. Right? In my case, I have a business to run and other responsibilities to take care of day in and day out. What I mean by session I just some light play, like with toys or practicing positions, It doesn't mean having intercourse every day, just playing around relaxing and enjoying the time we have together. And time will sometimes run short, sometimes your partner doesn't live in your same town or lives one hundred miles away. In cases like this, it is harder to make things work so smoothly. I'd recommend a minimum of a session per week no matter how far you have to fly or drive. Let me just say this, after the family. work and life goals there is nothing more important than that partner.

I've driven more than five hundred miles not to miss a session with my partner, I was stationed in El Paso, Texas for almost five years, and every six months I would get deployed to San Antonio, Texas and I would drive down on Fridays and back on Sunday's just to not miss a session with my partner at the time. I've always felt it is that important to have that intimate time, a time to demonstrate to my partner that even when we are apart we can always get to one another.

I don't care how long you have been a sub I will take you through every step that I know your personality type, temperament likes, and dislikes and I'll sure as hell will let you know what mine is as well. If you are willing to dedicate the time and effort so will I. There is nothing this Master won't do to try and make things work, but you have to trust me, and I will do everything in my power to prove that I deserve that trust. There are so many experiences that I want to share with my partner and so many fantasies that we probably want to share with each other. Without going into the misconception that fantasies always mean sex. There are so many types of fantasies that I'll leave that issue for another time.

Thank you for reading.

Sincerely, Jay

I've said it before and will say it until you believe me. Communication is the key to any relationship.

What type of relationship are you looking for?
This is what type of relationship I'm looking for.
What do you like?
This is what I like?
What do you want?
This is what I want.
What do you need from me?
This is what I need from you.
Can you truly provide what I need?
This is what I am truly willing and able to provide.
I would like to try "this", would you be comfortable with it?

All I want is sex. Is that ok? We are adults after all. Simple

Some of these are hard to ask. And some are hard to answer, maybe because we don't yet know the answer. On the other hand, if you do know the answer, will you answer it. Truthfully? That is the difference and the basis of communication, we need to be truthful to be able to have a healthy relationship. In order to support one another, we need to understand one another. And that will only happen if we are truthful to one another. At least that is my take on this.

What do you think? Can you give me your opinion?