It’s not my first time here in The Cage, I used to be spaceprincesscs but I don’t think I’m that person anymore.
I went to so many funerals, became a nurse to a person who’s not here anymore, took care of kids, cry and rediscovered myself and well, I’m not her anymore.
Sometimes it’s hard for me to be a big girl, but I had to be, and now, it feels like I’m drowning and crying every night because I feel small and lonely and I don’t know how to handle it anymore.
I guess that’s life?
A friend of mine asked me while I like the whole bdsm thing and my answer was order and control. Feeling like everything is perfectly organized in my life, in my body and soul and like I can let someone else take care of things, take care of myself and feel safe and protected.
damn