But now here I am spilling my guts again. I guess anonymity is safer but I’d much rather be who I am. Why does this all have to be so taboo?! I guess that’s a part of the thrill.
Anyways, I slept with my ex again last night. I told him a few months ago that I’d like to stop sleeping together. He respected my decision and hasn’t initiated anything since. Sometimes when he stays over and we cuddle, I can feel him hard and sometimes he tries to get a rise out of me but it doesn’t work. However, yesterday, I was feeling particularly good. We came back from going out to eat. On the way to slipping into something more comfortable, we both tussle around on the bed. We do this for a while, settling into a cuddle, rubbing each other; me touching his stomach and him my back.
Maybe it was the music my sister was playing the room. Maybe it was just wanting to satisfy the urge I had. Whatever it was, I decided to let my feelings win. Cuddles went from blowing farts on each other to kisses on the neck and cheeks to intensely making out and dry humping. You know where this is going. Once we get to the actual sex, here’s where things get interesting. I guess since it’s been a while since he’s last released and being inside me feels so good that he’s trying not to cum so fast. So he tells me to stop moving so he can control the pace. I’m ontop of him and here he is thrusting up and down into and I can’t explain why, but I was getting so wet from that and it felt so good. I would try to move and again and again, he told me to stop and he controlled the thrusting slowly up and down into me. And I started becoming a quivering mess ontop of him, so much that he had to cover my mouth because my moans were getting louder and my family would hear me.
And this goes on until I hear my sister pass by my room and I realize my door isn’t completely shut. So we stop and I shut it and I hop back on and just go wild on him and hes getting closer and so I ask him if I should get the sex blanket out cause it’s gonna be messy and he asks instead if I have a condom. I have a bunch so I go to get them and we put it on and then he decided to get ontop and things kinda went downhill from there. He doesn’t thrust hard enough into me, it’s very light, and one wrong move next, a bent penis later, nobody comes.
At least I had fun.