I was told to update my blog by a friend I met on here. I wasn't aware that he was aware of this blog but whatever. I do want to update it. Recently I've noticed how much I have grown.
Since I have joined the kink life I have become more confident about my body. I wore something I never would've imagined going out in but I was excited, confident, and encouraged. So many girls gave me compliments and said how amazing I looked. Before I joined the kink life I never orgasmed. I didn't even touch myself. I was too worried about doing it wrong or embarrassing myself even though I was alone. Now I'm excited to try new toys, to learn my body, to discover what feels good. I can now orgam 6 times in a row. There are still difficulties where I get stuck in my head but I'm getting better at getting past that. Since I've joined the kink life I have traveled to new places, met new people, and as an introvert thats the most amazing thing I could've done. I went to a party, I went to munches, I went to a bdsm club. Every memory I have of the kink life, every person I have met has been amazing and I have learned something from every one of them. I am more confident about who I am as a person. This is the most at peace I've been with myself. I'm excited to continue learning and growing and trying new things. And I don't like change.
I've learned to stop caring what others think and to do what makes me happy. I've gotten piercings, sterilized, I'm more confident about being alone and just appreciating where I'm at and where I'm going. Because of the kink life I'm no longer terrified of sex. I no longer care if a guy sees me as attractive or hideous because I know I'm hot stuff and I have the personality to match. I will no longer dim myself so others can feel better about themselves. I will no longer beg people to be in my life. I will not keep toxic people in my life. I'm living for me. I'm discovering me...one toy, kink, friend at a time.
