People on youtube and other spots get mad at me for wanting a rich guy. Folks online have been trying to point me to that manosphere stuff because I do not have a suitable mate and I just date myself. I think they are trying to say that I am too old to find a mate because the men my age want a younger woman. I get that and I actually support that strategy big time. I don't want any more kids and I get a lot of messages from younger dudes who want me to have their babies and I'm all fuck no not for any amount of money in the world. And I don't really want a guy my age because I lived my twenties at two years old folks and there is a huge maturity gap still. I prefer a guy 10-25 years older because they typically have better stuff, are smarter, and can sometimes keep up with me intellectually. They also tend to appreciate me more because at that age you stop giving a fuck about keeping up appearances.
I think people get mad at me about wanting money because they are not putting themselves in my shoes. I have a disability and a lot of challenges and still I figured out how to survive alone with a kid. It's not amazing, but it's nothing to sneeze at in the San Francisco Bay Area. And it's hard as hell for an autistic person to develop these skills, especially a female autistic person. At least in the communities I've experienced (a lot), women are expected to be pro-social, extraverted, empathetic, put others before themselves, etc... etc.. Autistic women do not get the same amount of support and encouragement and fucking coddling that autistic guys do. And that's a fact. So my thinking is that if I could figure out how to get money my mate sure as shit should have that on lock too. I don't even want the guys money, I just don't want to date a broke boy. I don't have to and you can't make me. I love living alone and I do want to meet someone, just not someone who will require me to live a more challenging life or sacrifice to be with him. Daily life is an everyday struggle relationships shouldn't have to be struggle love. And there are like 10 guys for every girl in this city, but my crazy ass is too scared to leave the house to socialize so rest assured haters I probably will end up single for awhile, lol.
And I am from the gutter I don't come from money either. And I know that I look like I got left out of bad and boujee sometimes but I'm working on it with my human doll cosplay. So there. Great day ahead for the kid, me and the puppy! Hope you all have an amazing weekend as well. Thank you for keeping up with my dumb blog.
RIP Takeoff
p.s. I've been watching this lady on youtube because she is very smart. I don't understand social stuff a lot and I don't think jews have a 'cuffing season' (maybe b4 pesach a tiny bit???). I find the holidays annoying because it's hard to shop and there are more crowds and that christmas music sucks ass. And traffic and folks are on vacation. Halloween is cool though. I'm going to be Kanye dressed as Tyler the Creator in the Igor era. But I appreciate the PSA from this smart and savvy woman:
