lHARLEYQUONN(masochist female)

I just don’t know how to feel

I just don’t know how to feel
I just don’t know how to feel anymore one day I am not one day I am here
I miss the person that was strong bold but was I ever or did I just do as I am was told.
I thought we were meant to be but faith did not mean for it to happen.
I would have given up everything just for you.
But a man like you who was I kidding you were never mine but I was yours.
I would have given you 200% control over me, but GOD had other intentions I guess.
That a man like you was just out of my reach I would never have a man I wanted never
Man why is it hurting so bad when I think he is laughing enjoying himself not giving me no second thought.
I know it is something he is not even contemplating if he ever had feelings for me. I think it was all just a game
For him not for me
I did not just wanted a Dom I wanted a best friend a partner nothing more nothing less.
Now I am left with a broken heart I have to pick up the pieces and move on while he just moves onto the next one
I am devastated I don’t know what to do.
There is Nothing for you to do Michele he is done he gave up let it go move on like you always have yes you are getting older but you’ve got this. You can do this.
That’s what I am telling myself will it work only time will tell.
He is a ghost today a day later.
It’s like he was never there but still is.

Day 1

1 year ago. March 26, 2023 at 1:06 PM

Day 1

It is the day after I am not sure what made me think this was easy he did not say it’s over not yet.

But he will I just know it in my heart.

He said he needed a sext whore or a submissive and that I had not proven any of these things I needed to find a way immediately or it was just a waste of time. Well shortly after he went off line and did not return.

I still don’t know what a sext whore is but I have never been a sub before.

I am New I don’t know how to give up control.

I am 49 and raised 2 kids on my own I had to take control of my life otherwise I could do not have survived.

Yes I had told him everything about myself,send my first tit pic ever.

I am from Japanese background so sending those things is nothing but untraditional.

I want to submit and give up control but for me that is hard to do.

I don’t know where to start.

I don’t know a thing about what is to be a submissive but I want to learn.

What can I do at this point?

Give up move on.

I have no other choice I cannot wait day in day out until he made up his mind or was him getting off line an implication that we were done?

I am not a mind reader we are thousand of miles apart.

I am so oblivious to all of this.

Should I wait another day

He is out of my league my head keeps telling me but my heart says your chemistry was there.

Was it there? Or was it not. I felt it but did he really feel it too?

Now I begin to question everything.

What happened to getting to know each other I guess we totally skipped that part but isn’t that how a D/S relationship is supposed to start off?

I don’t know what to do

Do you?

blushingforyou(sub female) - I am sorry this happened to you, but did he ever as you before you began what you wanted too?

You have zero reason to feel badly or guilty.
I bet once some time has passed you will actually be grateful he disappeared.

1 year ago

blushingforyou(sub female) - Ask you not as you stupid misspelling 🤦♀️

1 year ago

ErosRising(dom male){Hekate} - I am going to throw my 2 cents into this. If the D-type is pushing for certain things right off the bat, then he/she are, what I would consider an "Insta-dom". Dynamics take time to develop. It is not like a public play session where you might "play" with another in a negotiated scene. A true dynamic takes time and energy without demands right up front. A piece of advice from the left side of the slash is to slow down. You need to find out who you are first and learn your limits and stick to them. This will help in your vetting of a potential partner. Learn "Red Flags"!! This will help to keep you from potentially getting with the wrong person and into a seriously bad situation. Also, do not start taking demands from anyone right up front. In this lifestyle, it is about communication and trust. You need to learn about the person you are interested in and see if they line up with your interests, wants, and needs. This all takes time. Slow down and do not rush!!
A true Dom will take it slow to learn about you and your wants/needs. If they are just looking for a piece of ass, then they will start right of like you are already in a dynamic with them and requesting/demanding things of you. My advice... Run and run fast. There are plenty of good Doms out there who are watching and waiting. Be patient and Learn what you can. When it is the right time, your Dom will present himself.

~Eros

1 year ago

I'mME - Trust is something people build, brats don't have a corner market on trust issues.
I could guess what a sext whore is and I know the technical definition is of a sub
but for a Dom to say you are neither one, well if you consented then it's his role to help guide you unless he specially stated that he wanted a sext whore and/or sub who had experience.
Did you or did you not tell him you didn't have any experience? Right? You told him, so he knew.

I'm trying to get you to see the the situation from another perspective. If he hadn't committed to you, why you sending pics online? If you wanted to , great. But I'd he asked, .......

Please do some research And then some more , so you can stay as safe as possible.
He is not worth your time worrying .

1 year ago

Alphasubforhim(sub female) - Yes! ❤️❤️❤️

1 year ago

lookingforyouslave(dom male) - Following 😎

1 year ago

Strifen123(sub male){Let’s see } - Always be you, never be what you’re not. If he or she wants you like truly wants you then it will happen we all make adjustments if serious abut a connection with another. Especially D/S relationships be strong be willing. But never change who you are . After all it the dom is true they are attracted to you . Everything else will be agreed on a dom is only as good as the submissive they care for. You have a beautiful soul go with your feelings not there’s.

1 year ago

lHARLEYQUONN(masochist female) - Thank you love you for like my friend

1 year ago

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