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Sun’s Disposition on This & Future Days

Blog on random thoughts, feeling, insight to my soul
1 year ago. June 12, 2023 at 2:15 PM

My experiences on here are important memories and lessons for me to keep close. You may have thought you had a great hand, then you sigh deeply, because you remember you don’t know how to play cards yet. When you finally learn how to, you are givin a hand that sucks ass and makes you cry. It’s a big fat reminder that you can’t always win with the hand you been dealt. Have to try, and try, and try (could go on, but I’m sure you get the point) again and hope eventually for a better hand.

I will try hard to find a better match, THE BEST EVER gosh dang it! I got really lucky, sorta, and then lost it in sunny fashion my first time out into the BDSM puddle (cue car/the word “relationship”  explosion in the background that is 10 times bigger than it should be). I’m sure it’ll take another bazillion tries to get someone who will match me even better, so gotta keep my chin up.

So funny, I heard a different version of “life is a bitch, and then you die”. I guess when you’re out there, trying to find the right guy, especially in bdsm, and all the bad jerk guys are coming around just hurting you and tearing you down, she says “life’s a bitch, and then you turn into one”.

Lol I love it, but hoping I don’t get that far off the ledge.Bitch me is an unpleasant me, and I really dislike being within that emotional turmoil.

Also, I feel stupid when I have looked at a profile, and I didn’t notice any red flags, so I tend to blame myself when things go south real fast.

Are you guys able to name some things that you know, or maybe you’ve seen some things repeatedly and you just know how it’s gonna go? What to stay away from?  What do you guys feel about out of the country partners?

 

 


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