I found myself gazing into the gold and red hues of the sunset today. Time stopped for a moment, and I found myself stopping as well to capture it with my phone. In a way I was sad that my family or someone else wasn't there to enjoy the beauty of it with me. I often feel like so many people pass by without noticing the small things in life.
The sky is almost an obsession for me. I have so many beautiful photos of it, but alas no one to share them with but family. I hope you all don't mind me sharing them with you every once in a while. My mother can often be caught stealing my photos and hanging them in here house. When I asked her why her only reply was, you take good photos. I love my family, they are essentially the biggest part of my life, and the people I turn to when I am troubled. I often wonder why I never found true love, the elusive soulmate as it were. I began to wonder if maybe I had done something wrong, but as I grew, and as I moved through my life I realized, it is not me. It is the world, fate, and just how life works sometimes. In discovering this I believe I became content in a sense of who I am as a person.
I apologize gentlemen in advance, but I am not interested in a relationship. I've been there several times, tried it all, its just not for me. Somehow I always end up unhappy, whether it be abuse, being cheated on, financial problems, or whatever. It just never works. I feel safest by myself. As for the mystery behind me, there is no mystery. I am just a small town girl, living everyday one at a time. I vacation, I drink, I sometimes indulge in delta 8 ( yes I know its so unhealthy) but I mostly use it for meditation purposes, and I'm just trying to live my life to the fullest with no regrets.
I would like to invite you all to message me if you ever feel alone, suicidal, depressed, or just need a friend who will listen and give sage advice, my inbox is always open to you. I've been there and never want to go back. You are never alone in your sorrows, so many people are like you and share the same grief and pain you experience. They are probably hurting just like you , they just don't know how to reach out to find someone to share in the pain with them.
Other than that, thank you all for the warm welcome it is very much appreciated.
With Love
SomonesSoulmate
