lambsone's thoughts

Sir's assignment for me today was to do things that would please him. This is the first thing I did to please him today. I wrote a poem. The first paragraph is in reference to a comment he made that he wanted me to wear a dress in the garden. When I was confused, he said "Because I might want to 'take you' there." The paragraph about Scottish Heather is a reference to the Victorian stories I've been reading.

A Victorian poem for "country Sir"

By Melanie T. Campbell

10-3-24

Take Me

Take me in the garden,

Underneath the skies so blue,

Where puffy clouds live way up high,

Cast shadows on we two.

Take me behind the hedgerow,

At the gathering of a friend,

The secret delights you give me,

Seemingly have no end.

Take me in the Heather,

High in the Scottish hills,

Seeing you above me,

Gives my heart a swelling thrill.

Take me at the campfire,

As we journey to and fro,

Where the searing heat from logs aflame,

Cannot hold a candle to you.

Take me on the Terrace,

In light of the Harvest Moon,

Your soft breath upon my neck,

Encourages me to swoon.

Take me in the forest,

So dark and oh so dreer,

Where only woodland creatures,

With watchful eyes appear.

Take me in the church pew,

When all have gone abed, 

You are very naughty Sir,

So naughty, my breathless lips said.

So take me where you wish Sir,

Whether real or in my dreams,

There is no place in heaven or earth,

Where you have not taken me.

So far when I send Sir photos that he requests, I don't weae makeup and I pull my hair back in a ponytail.

But today I got inspired and took the time to put makeup on and curl my hair just as a treat for him. 

One of the things he wants me to do for him is let my hair get longer. I guess he'll decide when it's long enough.

So this is the photo I took and sent to him today so that he would have a nice picture to look at. His reaction to all the photos I sent today at his request was, "Good girl".

I've contacted my gynecologist and am awaiting a reply but thought I'd ask here as well in case anyone has had this problem and has already figured out what to do about it.

While doing my first task for countrySir, I encountered a bloody vaginal discharge on the 6" (4.5" shaft) dildo I was using. This is the 2nd time it's happened.

Thrusting seems to be causing this whether hand held or mounted on a service and riding it. I use Replens cream applicators to insert lube in my vagina and Replens from the tube to hand apply to the oitside entrance. I also lube the dildo. I initially have some pain inserting the dildo but once seated inside and thrusting there's no pain.

However, when I remove the dildo, there is a bloody discharge on the underside of the shaft. I'm not sure if I'm tearing something inside or not. I try not to be as aggressive as an excited man might be but still this happens. And the discharge continues for awhile even after removing the dildo. 

Anyway, does this problem sound familiar to anyone? I am not a virgin but I haven't really had much sex in life and my younger body never did this. But I'm not yet sure what a menopausal 72 year body can handle. I sure as heck don't want this to be a sexual problem for Sir and I. I am about 10 years older than he.

Thanks in advance.

Update from research: Post Coital Bleeding

Today 9-20-24 I have accepted "countrySir" as my permanent Dominant/Master 24/7. He makes me laugh a lot. I find him to be mature and understanding but also firm. He is experienced in the role from a prior marriage (now a widower). Our spiritual beliefs are the same and he is also my brother in Christ, and a substitute Pastor when required.

Therefore life will be changing for me. I will be learning how to please him and fulfill my role. I look forward to belonging to such a good man.

I do need to get permission to respond to any Dominants that message me and the conversations cannot be of a sexual nature as I need to put all of that energy into focusing on him.

I don't yet know how to navigate friendships, so as I learn from his expectations and we negotiate our lives together then I'll be better able to know what I can and cannot do.

So please be patient with me as I learn to walk this new, never before traveled path.