As I lay on my bed, I find myself thinking about that first “Welcome” message I received from you. I remember being so defeated by all I had been through that I was ready to give up on myself. My journey was only just beginning and I had been knocked down more than ever.
I stared at your message and read it several times. I’d close it and go back to it. I’d start to delete your message but something always stopped me. I decided to read your profile. It scared the crap out of me! I wanted to get out of your profile but something told me to keep reading.
By the time I was done reading...I was still scared shitless...but my heart was awoken. It smiled a kind of smile it had never smiled before. While I argued with my heart, my hands were already typing away. You responded and my heart started beating faster. I remember thinking I must’ve gone crazy for writing back to you. But my hands had a mind of their own.
Actually, my mind controlled my hands, words, and actions. I’d only notice AFTER my message was sent that I continued responding to you. How was this possible? Well, while my heart was distracting me, my mind took over. For the first time in my life they were both working together! My heart and my mind...a team!! Both in sync! Both wanting the same thing! Both knowing from the very moment they read your words what I refused to believe...????
Thank you to all that took the time to read my words. Your words are always welcomed and appreciated.
XOXO,
Missub ??
