The Culture that has been here all the time

I can't recall ever having as many healthcare appointments in one week as I had this past week. I am glad it is the weekend, as I used to be glad when I worked. Interacting with the staff at my healthcare facilities is cheerful, and I can put on a facade of doing well even when I am not.

My cat was right next to me but did not roust me or hurry me up, so he must be very intelligent, aware that I wanted to sleep an extra fifteen minutes. I pet him, he purred, and head bumped my chin. My Terrier was snoring lightly, so I let her sleep and went down to feed the cat.

What is my agenda today: Perform a cursory scan of news on the internet. Work on some art. Watch another refresher chess game study. Practice guitar and sing several old songs (I haven't worked on my songs for some time now). Select a documentary to watch and a program from the BBC for later.

Haven't had much of an appetite lately, prefer snacks, fast and light. Besides, my dining room and table are currently dominated by artwork and art materials.

The change back to cooler temperatures and a cloudy sky seems to paint a sense of sadness on me this morning, inside and out. (Pixabay image)

Not all colors in the mediums that artists use occur naturally. This AI explanation excerpt explains it well:

Several artist colors and perceived hues do not exist within the physical light spectrum (the rainbow of colors produced by a prism). These are known as extra-spectral or non-spectral colors, and they are largely created by the brain combining inputs from different receptors.  Facebook +4

Magenta/Magenta-Purples: Magenta is the most prominent example. It is not found in the light spectrum because it has no single wavelength. Instead, the brain produces magenta when it detects red and blue-violet light simultaneously (effectively filling in the gap where green would be).
Purple/Violet: While violet exists at the edge of the light spectrum, the "purple" often used in art is a mix of red and blue, often considered a non-spectral hue.

Pink: Like magenta, pink is not in the spectrum; it is a mixture of red and violet wavelengths.
White: White light is a combination of all wavelengths, but white itself is not a specific color in the spectrum, but rather the presence of all colors.

Chimeric Colors: These are unusual colors that can only be seen through sensory adaptation, such as "staring at red to make the green receptors tired," leading to "greenish-red" or "yellowish-blue," which cannot exist in natural light.
"Olo": Recently reported by scientists, this is described as a vivid blue-green tone that does not exist in nature and was created to test color perception.  Facebook +10
These colors are created, in part, by the human brain to bridge the gap between red and blue light, which are at opposite ends of the visible spectrum, when they are perceived together.  pixabay. com

Not entirely the first, but the first in this type of pose in the past, very partial poses only. Oh, I forgot to sign it. Watercolor and watercolor pencil.

Mt dear blog readers, I have good and bad to report concerning my health checks yesterday, no surprise.

I have several arthritic joints, but my hip surprised the doctors because I keep moving, unlike many of their patients who complain and want fast answers. Mind over matter works for me. "I keep moving." I play guitar to overcome arthritis in my fingers (LOL). I eat lemons to keep on singing LOL.  I have a strong will, that is how I avoided a heart transplant from 2005 - 2010. Today, the CT scan of my aorta makes me a little nervous, but like other signs of aging, I "keep keeping on".

My lover and muse, wherever you are, I am not impatient, but do not wait too long to come to me. I need you.

Are your kinky thoughts just fantasies and wishful thinking, or are they something you actually desire? Are you constrained by something? Fear: Bad relationships, experiences like catching a STD or being hurt emotionally or possibly physically. Songwriters have a metaphor for you.

"Walk through the Fire"

"Walk the Fire"

"Ring of Fire"

Or Dance

"I hope you dance."

"The Dance"

Do something, don't just sit there and wonder what you MIGHT do or what it MIGHT be like.

I knew a guy who admonished me when I hesitated about doing something: He said, "Do something even if it is wrong." When you choose to move, you can always make a course correction.

The idea of a domestic sub who can help me in everyday life was presented to me when I was weighed down as a caregiver for eight years as my wife declined. It sounded great until the woman who introduced me to BDSM tricked me into giving her money ( some others did as well). I truly need a domestic sub now, as my housework is not what it used to be. I only just began to appreciate BDSM when things became more critical in my caregiver role.

If I were to meet a woman who was a submissive, domestic, and kinky BDSM woman, I would be overjoyed. I would work hard to make our relationship work, probably fall in love, and practice more kinky things and offer her what good things I could.

What can I write? It is all in the experiencing and seeing. I researched these images to get ideas for future artwork, but examining them was more than I could endure. My imagination, as fantastic as it is, is never enough.

Images from Google free to use.

I got into QoR watercolors for two reasons: 1) I can't locate my good watercolors, and 2) The hype around CoR (from Blick/Golden) sold me. Not the most expensive, but definitely not inexpensive. Using gouache and watercolor pencils with watercolors is new to me. I was predominantly a landscape artist and did some surreal work as well, mostly in acrylics and then oils; now I am putting all my efforts into figure and face work, especially nude work. I am not afraid to make mistakes and admit it: I trashed my first full nude from her back because I made some awful painting mistakes and ruined it.

Moving on. I am so happy that Pixabay.com has pre-approved models with release forms on file, so my lack of having a muse and live models is not a complete hindrance.

Sometimes, when I paint a woman, I vicariously fall in love with her.

PS I will also do other subjects, landscape, flowers, even surreal art when the mood strikes me.

What is a blog? A narrative, an anecdote, a confession, sharing, or maybe even a boast. What a blog is not is a conversation. It may lead to a conversation, a friendship, an enlightenment, or nothing at all. How do people respond?

Sometimes they sense the writer's need accurately and engage in a dialogue. Unfortunately, because of the limitations of how a blogger conveys an idea, the reader must make assumptions; some are correct, most are probably not.

Here I have met people who care, some get it, some do not, and the rest choose not to comment, so I do not know much about them.

I could as many a celebrity does wave a kiss off and say, "I love you all." 

I do appreciate positive responses and learn from negative responses.

The emotional and intellectual engagement confirms that I do not know everything and that I remain a student of and in life.

I was at my back door waiting for my dog to return from sniffing the yard when a bumblebee came and put on a show that would put a human air show to shame. I have always watched bees, especially bumble bees, because their abilities are amazing. The blog post is different but worth the time, and perhaps it will encourage you to marvel at what lives in your natural surroundings. (The only time I get stung is from a yellow jacket or cow killer if I am foolish enough to mess with them.)

"Bumble bees are remarkable pollinators that exhibit extraordinary abilities, including "buzz pollination" (sonication) to release pollen by vibrating their flight muscles at ~200 Hz. They can fly in cold weather, navigate using polarized light on cloudy days, and use, or "buzz," to heat their nests. Their high intelligence allows for complex problem-solving and social learning."

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